thank you all for the prayers..thank you Lord for giving me a night's sleep from exhaustion, as I've had several sleepless nights..Please continue to pray as I talked to my husband and he still talks as if he's made up his mind..Oh it hurts! Lord help me too and lift me as I go through a very humiliating process of feeling very worthless, joining the ranks of those whose partners decide there's more to sex than this.. and to explain something else, in the past couple of years, he was introduced to a religious group, that believes only in Paul's teaching, except most of the love is thrown out. Trust in the Grace they say..this is true, but. why the 360 turn as lustily pleasures are fully lived out, leaving a path of destruction all the way, as grace covers it all..humans cannot judge (according to Paul), Only God can, and in that they are totally ok with. The only thing they have to deal with is "consequence and that's only on this earth. Prayer and love, and holy spirit seem to be severely lacking. The leaders seem cold and heartless..Us going to a spiritual body of believers became nil, as I couldn't bring myself to connect with their way of belief and he resented my way of belief. Please pray that they will at least develop a love, and holy spirit can live in them..this has not helped our situation out at all, as we went through severe battle with all that, and looking back I wish I would've done things a little differently, I just felt so sad when the holy spirit and love seemed to be removed from the equation.. this continues to seem to play a role, in saving the marriage, as he came in from a night of being with other wom(en)...he said, he will probably see a lot of backlash, but it doesn't matter because God is his judge (and has him sealed) in heaven..I don't argue or say anything to his 'ticket to heaven', never have, as I will not judge, but that seems to make him feel vindictive.. the whole thing has shaken my faith to the core, and even went through a period and still do sometimes, if there even is a God. This is very scary, as when my faith is gone can my prayers even be heard? But I guess I still have faith, cuz I'm still believing in Prayer..
