God is not your problem, beloved. It is your inability to believe that God has good things for you. Your life has been one where you cried out and it seemed He did not answer you. Over time, you ability to believe that He cares gets worn down and soon, it becomes either God hears me or He does not exist. He created you, fearfully and wonderfully made you, just as those precious children of yours who depend on you to stand firm.
I encourage you, if you have not given your life to Jesus, to ask Him to reveal Himself to you in a mighty way, or in simple faith, confess Him to take over your life and be Lord. Then get into the word and when it jumps out at you/speaks to you, write those verses down and ask Holy Spirit to not only give you revelation but confirm that word.
Father, glorious God, I ask a release of your goodness into the life of this mother who needs to know You. Jesus step in and take charge and bring about a changed life for her and her children. Father open hearts of your people and even those who are not saved to begin to help this mother and her children. Let your favor be apparent as this day goes forth and each day forward. Your goodness is for each one, for you are not a respector of persons. Let a home be opened, let a job be given, let a caregiver step in and let your provision be seen. For this child of Yours will declare the wonders of her God who stepped in and became a husband to her and a father to her children. Father, speak to these childrens fathers to stand up and be men who take their responsibilities seriously and be and provide for their own children, as you gave command. In Jesus name. Amen.
I encourage you to begin to read the bible to your children. Take them to church, let them come to know the God who fearfully and wonderfully made them. He knew them, and you, even before you were born. He sings over you songs of deliverance, He dances over you, rejoices over you because He sees the amazing person you were meant to be and the life you were meant to share with Him.
In the name of Jesus, Beloved, I call you blessed of the Lord. I bless you with shalom/peace. I bless you with restoration of what was stolen from you. I bless you with reconciliation in relationships and thank the Lord that He is able to redeem all these. In Jesus name.
Num 6:24 The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:
Num 6:25 The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:
Num 6:26 The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.