SinglemomV
Beloved of All
Dear Prayer Warriors, this is a extremely important week for Jordan. He has 2 finals tomorrow in L.A. and in geometry. He is not passing either courses, and will have to pass these exams to pass this semester. If he doesn't pass, I feel as though he will drop out of school. This request, may seem to some as it's just school, and I hope by me just mentioning this, I have not offended anyone, as it is not my intention. I know there are other things going on with Jordan that lead him to this point, that I have had to come to the point of realizing now over this, I have no control over this issue. Only the Lord is in Control of every situation. Dear Lord, you know Jordan badgers me to get his way, and his father blames me for this or that. I did my best, even if I didn't always do what knew I should have done at times. I have went to bat for this kid, and now it's up to you, Lord. Lord, you know I have let Jordan consume myself, my emotions, but I only have good intentions out of my Love for him, by wanting him to get his education and to be successful in life, and to stop hanging around with the kids he is hanging with, that are dragging him down their path with them..Lord, You know, I now am having trouble letting go of my son, even though he's 18, he's a junior in high school and is rebelling in all areas. Dear Lord you know he has ADD, he's in special ed, going after a technical diploma. Dear Lord, you know he is highly capable of doing this. Dear Lord, I guess that is why it is so hard for me to wait and see. Dear Lord, It does hurt me to know what Jordan was and in 8 months who has become. Dear Lord, I do question what did I do wrong? Dear Lord, Should I done this or that.I know I ask myself, could I have, should I have, would if I had, doesn't matter anymore. Dear Lord, I do feel somewhat to blame as I am his Mother. I just pray Jordan will do his best and really think about the decisions, he is making before it is too late. I know though You, Lord, and only through You Lord, it is Never too late. Dear Lord, you know Jordan has a lot of anger toward me, since my divorce from his dad. He blames it all on me. As a mother, I would never do anything to intentionally hurt my child at the young age of 7. Lord, you know I have had some really bad things happen to me in my life Lord, at a young age and into my young adult years. Dear Lord you know For years I felt as though I had no self worth, and then I made mistakes, and I have been so very angry at myself for making those mistakes, and I have to learn that I have to forgive myself, as you have forgiven me for everything I have done that has lead me where I am today..I can't live in the past, I have to live in the future as you want us all to do..Everything that happens is your plan. Dear Lord, If it is Your Will for Jordan, to pass this semester then so be it. Dear Lord, Scott is going down the depression path again, drinking, going to bars. He says it's all he's ever known and he doesn't see anything wrong with it, other than maybe drinking too much. He had been going to Church Lord, he told me it's boring. I said you could be a witness to others, he said I can't even help myself. Please be with Austin he has heard from his dad, but I do not want his heart to get disappointed, it has been 4 years since he has seen him and 2 yrs, since he has heard anything. Protect Austin's heart Dear Lord. Remove all my health issues Dear Lord, give me trust and faith and courage. I love you Lord..Please forgive me of my sins Dear Lord..Let thy will be done.. In Jesus Name Amen
