shequila
Disciple of Prayer
please please pray for me for guidance, support, strength, solitude, the will to breath,please pray my life changes for the better, please pray that I receive happiness. my well being is restored my faith restored my hope my finances increases beyond measure pray for my health..pray for my soul and heart and mind to know and trust that I will be okay
I feel as if I have no purpose anymore. I am 36 years old with 3 daughters and all though I struggled a lot as a child trying to fit and feel like I mattered it took me years to realize I was a nobody. However, I have watched people walk over me and treatment all types of ways because I must be an easy target due to the fact I am so emotional. For me to know that all my life no one ever really wanted to hear what I say or what I feel till this day and it hurts so bad. I always feel like I am not wanted or loved because I just felt like that's how God designed me to be so, I started to accept that. I'm a loner even though I have friends I am always by myself. I have a boyfriend for the past 3 years that talks to me any type of way because he feels he just can. me and my kids live with him and although I work just like he does he provides when I fall short but he just uses that as a reason why I shouldn't complain about the way he talks to me. When he gets mad he tells me to get out of his house and tries to make me feel less of a person and I feel like I am drowning and dying even more inside. I hates when I talk or as a question and I don't know anymore. I get sick often due to my sickle cell so I fall short financially a lot. and again he tells me how good I have it. I felt more happier when I was alone'. It's so much that is built up inside that I feel like I am going to explode. and I know I need help
I feel as if I have no purpose anymore. I am 36 years old with 3 daughters and all though I struggled a lot as a child trying to fit and feel like I mattered it took me years to realize I was a nobody. However, I have watched people walk over me and treatment all types of ways because I must be an easy target due to the fact I am so emotional. For me to know that all my life no one ever really wanted to hear what I say or what I feel till this day and it hurts so bad. I always feel like I am not wanted or loved because I just felt like that's how God designed me to be so, I started to accept that. I'm a loner even though I have friends I am always by myself. I have a boyfriend for the past 3 years that talks to me any type of way because he feels he just can. me and my kids live with him and although I work just like he does he provides when I fall short but he just uses that as a reason why I shouldn't complain about the way he talks to me. When he gets mad he tells me to get out of his house and tries to make me feel less of a person and I feel like I am drowning and dying even more inside. I hates when I talk or as a question and I don't know anymore. I get sick often due to my sickle cell so I fall short financially a lot. and again he tells me how good I have it. I felt more happier when I was alone'. It's so much that is built up inside that I feel like I am going to explode. and I know I need help
