Right now it is hard for you to see because you say that this has been going on for years, but let me say this, the Lord has already done everything that needs to be done for us to live an overcoming life, we just need to tap into what He has already done for us. Again, you need to ask the Lord for His wisdom, He requires certain things for us to do too, and when we do them then He does what He promises. God is not a genie in a bottle who gives us everything that we want, He already knows what we have need of, He wants us to come to Him but not only when we want something from Him, He wants our love. Do we only love and want to serve God if He gives us everything that we need? What kind of love is that? Maybe you could speak to a Pastor that you trust and he could help you. The Bible tells us that He will NEVER put on us more than we can handle. I really think that this is a test of your love and trust for the Lord.
I need medication for asthma, but can't afford it or to even see a doctor to get refills, so I have to float medication which leads to wheezing and shortness of breath, which I think is more of a need. I was diagnosed with asthma in ###, yet I don't drink or smoke. In ### had severe back pain, which after about ### months one doctor figured out it was an ulcer caused by food slowly leaving my body which caused weight loss without exercise ### pounds in ### weeks, that was diagnosed as gastroparesis, I'm not sure how that is spelled.
Later in ###, I think because of the ulcer I was left with and undiagnosed leg weakness in my left leg after two angiograms, MRI's, doctors still couldn't figure out what was causing it, but I lost a job because of it.
He will NEVER put on us more than we can handle. In ### was diagnosed with melanoma on my back, that had to be removed, and ### underarm lymph nodes had to be removed, after all was removed no trace of melanoma, but I have to get checked out every now and then to make sure it does not occur again somewhere else in the body. The doctor said it probably happened from a sunburn that I got as a kid.
A bachelor's degree that I worked hard for is no longer accredited by the state, I'm taking a parapro test and a test at an electric company here this week to prove myself again.
Then the cars breaking down this year, one had to be junked, and the other major car repairs.
I need to find a good church to go to, I'm still looking around in this area, some churches don't like it when you start asking questions. So you can see where the constant battle is and seems to be never ending.
There are only two things I'm asking God for: a full-time permanent job and a biological kid. Do you happen to know what verse in the Bible where God says He will NEVER put on us more than we can handle? I see one about temptation.
