We hear the depth of your despair, and our hearts ache with you. You are not alone in your suffering, and we want you to know that your life has immense value—value that is not defined by your pain or your mistakes. The weight you carry is heavy, but we believe that God hears your cry, even when words fail. You mentioned "if you are out there," and we want to gently remind you that God *is* here, even in the darkness. He sees you, He loves you, and He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). The Bible tells us that Jesus came so that we might have life, and have it abundantly (John 10:10), but we know that abundance doesn’t always feel possible when you’re in the depths of despair.
Your request to end your life is something we must address with both truth and compassion. The Bible is clear that life is a gift from God, and it is not ours to take. In Exodus 20:13, God commands, "You shall not murder," and this includes the taking of one’s own life. We understand that you feel as though things cannot change, but we serve a God who specializes in the impossible. He is the God who raises the dead to life, who turns mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11), and who promises to never leave us nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). Even when we cannot see a way forward, He is working behind the scenes, holding us in His hands.
You also mentioned that you feel "messed up" and don’t want to hurt the world anymore. We want to acknowledge that we all fall short and struggle with sin, but God’s grace is greater than our failures. Romans 5:8 tells us, "But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." You are not beyond redemption, and your pain does not disqualify you from God’s love. In fact, it is often in our brokenness that God draws nearest to us. We encourage you to bring your struggles to Him, not as someone unworthy, but as His beloved child.
We must also address the importance of Jesus Christ in this conversation. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God and the hope of eternal life. Acts 4:12 says, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved." If you have not already, we urge you to surrender your life to Jesus, to confess your sins, and to invite Him to be the Lord of your life. He is the only one who can truly heal your pain and give you the strength to face each day. If you are unsure how to do this, we would love to guide you through this process.
In this moment, we lift you up in prayer:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious soul who is in such deep pain. Lord, we know that You are close to the brokenhearted and that You save those who are crushed in spirit. We ask that You would wrap Your arms around them right now, reminding them that they are seen, known, and deeply loved by You. Father, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that is trying to steal their life. We declare that You are the God of hope, and we ask that You would fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding.
Lord, we confess that we do not always understand why we go through such deep valleys, but we trust that You are working all things together for good for those who love You. We ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a tangible way, showing them that You are their refuge and strength. Help them to cast all their anxieties on You, because You care for them. Father, we pray for healing—emotional, mental, and spiritual. Restore their joy, renew their strength, and remind them that their life has purpose and meaning in You.
We also pray for protection over their mind. Guard them from the lies of the enemy that tell them they are better off dead. Replace those lies with Your truth, Lord. Remind them that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) and that You have plans for them—plans for welfare and not for evil, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Surround them with people who will speak life into them, who will walk alongside them, and who will point them back to You.
Lord, if they do not know You as their Savior, we ask that You would draw them to Yourself. Open their eyes to see their need for Jesus and soften their heart to receive Him. We pray that they would confess their sins, turn away from them, and invite Jesus to be the Lord of their life. May they experience the freedom and new life that comes only through Christ.
We trust You, God, to intervene in this situation. You are the God who turns ashes into beauty, mourning into joy, and despair into hope. We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name that is above every name, the name by which we are saved. Amen.
We want to encourage you to reach out to someone you trust—a pastor, a counselor, a friend, or a family member—and share what you’re going through. You do not have to carry this burden alone. There are people who care about you and want to walk with you through this valley. If you don’t feel like you have anyone to turn to, we urge you to contact a crisis hotline or a Christian counselor who can provide support and help. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24/7 at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), and there are people there who want to listen and help.
We also encourage you to spend time in God’s Word, even if it’s just a few verses each day. Start with the book of Psalms, where David and others poured out their hearts to God in times of despair. Meditate on verses like Psalm 42:11, which says, "Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him, the saving help of my countenance, and my God." Let these words sink deep into your heart.
Lastly, we want to remind you that God is not done with you. Your story is not over, and He has a purpose for your life that only you can fulfill. We pray that you would hold on to hope, even when it feels impossible, and that you would allow God to rewrite the narrative of your life. You are loved, you are valued, and you are not alone. We are standing with you in prayer, believing that God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20).
