MissingJohnny
Prayer Warrior
I really want to say, "Unspoken Prayer Request, God knows the need," but I think this calls for specifics. I posted another prayer request yesterday to please pray that the love of my life, John, comes back to us to be a father to our baby girl, Maria, and to my son Virgil, as well as his son, "Gator", and also a husband to me. I mentioned that he is with a horrible woman who is too immature and insecure to let him see our baby. Today, I found out that he and his girlfriend, Holly Ann Ellis, are both on heroin. This explains a lot. Before you tell me, "Let him go. He is worthless. Let his demons have him. Just get over him." Please remember in the Bible when Paul was known by his birth name, Saul. Please remember all of the bad things he did before Jesus, after his ascension, appeared before Saul and blinded him for three days. Saul helped stone Stephen. He tracked down believers to assault and kill them. For my John, I keep praying and praying but I cannot do this alone. John is in there somewhere. That good man is trapped in his addiction. The REAL John would not do this. I believe that God has a purpose for John and I believe that there is a reason that I can't give up on him. Every time I pray, I feel the response in my heart, "Don't give up on John. I have a plan." See, I was Pagan, when I first got with John. He was Atheist. He led me back to the Lord seven months ago, while we were apart. He had been leading me the whole time, but in a gentle way. I thought my Paganism in the beginning of our relationship would cause my love for him and his for me to fail when I became a Christian. I was wrong. But then the drugs completely took him from me. I pray that John opens his eyes, gets off of heroin and all drugs, which it unfortunately appears that his pending prison sentence is the only way to rip him from the addiction. I pray for the soul of the poor wicked woman that he is with. What horrors has this poor Holly seen to make her so selfishly possessive and insecure to the point that she won't let him see our baby? I pray that Holly finds happiness and peace but also opens her eyes and releases John to return to me. I pray that John comes to his senses and remembers me, his daughter, Virgil, and Gator. He won't even see Gator right now and has never met Maria. I pray that John remembers how much we love each other. I have tried to get over him and it has been a year of being apart with no avail from my heart. I hope he remembers that I am what he needs. He needs his family. His anger at me has also caused him to turn against his entire family. His two sisters, whom have taken me and my children in when they didn't have to, have sided with me in the matter and find his behavior appalling. He is furious that they know his true colors and mine. He tells himself that they "betrayed him". Maria looks so much like her Daddy in every way. I have attached the one picture my sweet John sent me as a "cry for help". He was ill and had been crying, and missing me when he took the picture.
I pray the following relief in the name of the Messiah, Jesus Christ:
I thank you Lord, for hearing me and I praise you Lord, for the conviction of John's heart. I thank you for safely curing his addictions. I thank you for opening his eyes. I thank you for safely guiding him back to me. I thank you for this patience that you have granted me with John, though I do not understand why, I know that you have a plan. I thank you for what you are going to do in putting the broken pieces back together. I know you put us together for a reason and I thank you for that reason. I thank you for letting me know John. Now, I beg your mercy in this situation and please bring us back together. I thank you for this test of loyalty and faith. I have not faltered in either. John was the last man I was with and I have not loved anyone else. Anytime someone wanted to date me, something always got in the way. I believe that was you, Lord. I thank you for that. I thank you for making me stubborn and I thank you for not letting me give up on John. I thank you for making me see and remember the good in my sweet John. I thank you for your plan. Please send him to me. I do not want a man who is already made. I thank you for this broken man. I thank you for this man whom I have loved through thick and thin. I thank you for letting me bear our daughter. I thank you for this broken family. Please bring us back together. In the name of The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit. In the name of the Messiah, Jesus Christ, Amen.
I pray the following relief in the name of the Messiah, Jesus Christ:
I thank you Lord, for hearing me and I praise you Lord, for the conviction of John's heart. I thank you for safely curing his addictions. I thank you for opening his eyes. I thank you for safely guiding him back to me. I thank you for this patience that you have granted me with John, though I do not understand why, I know that you have a plan. I thank you for what you are going to do in putting the broken pieces back together. I know you put us together for a reason and I thank you for that reason. I thank you for letting me know John. Now, I beg your mercy in this situation and please bring us back together. I thank you for this test of loyalty and faith. I have not faltered in either. John was the last man I was with and I have not loved anyone else. Anytime someone wanted to date me, something always got in the way. I believe that was you, Lord. I thank you for that. I thank you for making me stubborn and I thank you for not letting me give up on John. I thank you for making me see and remember the good in my sweet John. I thank you for your plan. Please send him to me. I do not want a man who is already made. I thank you for this broken man. I thank you for this man whom I have loved through thick and thin. I thank you for letting me bear our daughter. I thank you for this broken family. Please bring us back together. In the name of The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit. In the name of the Messiah, Jesus Christ, Amen.
