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God, How long do you want me to cry? I don't know why, people who do nasty awful things get all the good things in life. Are you punishing me for trying to be good? I asked you to forgive me if I upset you in any way, I repented just for being really, and I cried, I fasted and asked you for a loving husband. I am now feeling tempted to put myself up on a speed dating website. That is very unsafe, but I have become that desperate. Please send me a husband. I cannot cry in pain anymore. Please bless my book. I wrote my first book, and now am finishing a film script. This will be a source of financial provision for me if you bless the sales—and then the glory and a lot of this money will go to you anyway, God. God, I'm hanging by a thread. Please bless me with unusual financial blessings, if anybody has stolen from me, let them repent and give me back the money too. I'm not angry, I just don't want to suffer. Also, please bless my womb. Things have always gone wrong in my life, so after I get married, let me fall pregnant without any difficulty. I need you to do some amazing things in my life. I need miracles. I also beg you and this I'm admitting I feel resentful. ### admitted that the only reason we went back every ten years to see grandparents and aunties and uncles in India, is because we couldn't afford it. When I asked why? and how come others are going every year or two years. He said because they aren't helping people. We lose loved ones; I only see my nana every ten years or five, these people die before my next trip. This made me furious. Why should we suffer without seeing those we love, because ### is giving all money away? Please Jesus, it's okay to help people, but please make provision for us to go every year, before my nana or my next uncle dies from something or an aunty. Because we only went once every ten years or 9, we lost one uncle, and then his mother six months later, then another uncle in a lorry accident and more. I do not want this life; we don't deserve it, God. I pray a change over this situation. Amen.
