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child_of_god
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god please, i know i sound like a broken record, but i am struggling so much with myself. i believe myself to be such a horrible person, good for nothing, unimportant, a burden, an annoyance, only causing pain. these things make me feel like no one could or will ever care about me. i've been so afraid that ive shut out the world, introverted and isolated myself. i pushed away my best friends, the only ones i can truly talk too. ive been trying to protect myself from getting hurt by building so so so many walls around myself. and i am having such a hard time bringing these walls down. god please remove these walls and barriers ive placed. please be my strength and courage to keep these walls down. i feel horribly with the way i've behaved, especially taking advantage and hurting my two friends who have put up with so much from me. please present the opportunity for me to make it up to them. and help me to become loving and selfless and open and honest. and restore the friendships i damaged with these two wonderful people, make them better than ever. i am doing my best, but i need your help. please heal me mentally and emotionally and spiritually.