Anonymous
Beloved of All
My now ex-boyfriend and I have had a what you call toxic relationship for the past four years but last year we decided on getting off of my birth control and trying to have a baby. We had a huge fight on New Year’s Eve and didn’t talk for 19 days. On the 19th day we talked again and a month later I found out I was pregnant.. I prayed for this baby God, and now that I have since found out, I was pregnant. Our relationship went downhill. I went to the ER for food poisoning and he didn’t care. He ended up moving out because he didn’t want to help me financially with our apartment and just stopped caring and going out and doing what he wanted.. If he wanted this God, why would he leave us? He went back to his mom’s house where she doesn’t charge her kids rent and I’m over here struggling to stay in my apartment, but I’d rather be on my own then go back to get help from family I’m mentally and physically falling apart. The life I prayed for is gone and I keep seeing videos on how God has a plan and to be patient and to work on myself, but it’s so hard. Please God give me strength, strength to be a good mom to my already nine year-old son and to my future Son… I pray that I can enjoy this pregnancy whether it’s alone or with just family. But I pray that he better himself as a man so he can be the father to his already two daughters he has and to his first son, which feels like he just abandoned. Please God bring us back together, stronger more financially stable, and able to communicate better. Please show him God that all things are possible if he just stops being so stubborn and so prideful and just change for the better, I pray that he stops drinking, and that he can learn how to be more financially stable, not only for himself but for his daughters he previously had with his ex… please God I really pray that you can bring us back together before I move out of this apartment please make him see that I have done anything and everything for him and it has all been out of love. Please don’t let this be the end of us God, please and if it is, please give me so much strength to get through This. Thank you.