Redledbetter1
Humble Servant of All
Please pray for ES and me. It has been a long 8 or 9 months of hoping and praying that things will change. Sometimes they do but then quickly go right back to the way they were between us. I'm really trying. I really am but I'm running out of steam. I know she has a lot of things to figure out before we could ever really be together but I love her very much and just can't quit. I'm trying my best to be as patient as I can be. Should I give up? Should I stay and fight? I've given so much of my heart and I don't want to give up but I'm just tired of the "back and forth" or "push and pull" behavior. It breaks my heart every time she pulls away. Very confused here. One day, it seems as though God is working in this, and then the next day He's not. I know in my heart He always is working but I just don't understand what he is doing here.
