natasha2
Beloved of All
Lord please help me not to eat after 6 pm and not to drink calorie drinks like juices.
Help me to come to my perfect weight which should be approximately 15 kg less. I am 95 now. I am losing control over eating. I don't know if it's 1) stress - my father died 4 months ago 2) we take care of my mom who is 88 and has Alzheimer's, diabetes, depression and sometimes very difficult to handle because of her narcissistic traits, 3) I work far away from home using train not car - sometimes 12 hours absent from home 4) I have sometimes a difficult brother who wants to take/borrow money from my mother's savings and I am afraid that we will spend that money and you never know what will happen with her...he also has narcissistic traits...used cocaine with her ex-girlfriend and ended up in prison accused of rape and physical abuse (which I am not sure that he is really able to do that but her girlfriend took revenge on him because of his unfair behavior probably).
Fears of future and that I will not get the inheritance that belongs to me because I suspect that my brother will not be fair to me although he convinces me that I am his sister and that he will never do something to do damage to me. But who knows...he is using tricks to get what he wants like "borrowing" money from my mom. I would never take 5,000 euro now that my mother's future is not sure. In 10 years I am probably going to retire as a teacher and my pension will most likely be cut in half and we in Croatia have a low standard and I must be very careful and spend only on food and necessary clothes not to get into minus bank account. What will happen with my inheritance, with her savings, with my life etc...I feel I need to grow up suddenly and do drastic changes which I slowly manage to do. I am becoming really disciplined in stuff but this with food is extremely difficult. It's like my stomach is boiling and asking for food constantly. Nervousness, gastritis, anxiety, hormones, life-threatening events?
Help me to come to my perfect weight which should be approximately 15 kg less. I am 95 now. I am losing control over eating. I don't know if it's 1) stress - my father died 4 months ago 2) we take care of my mom who is 88 and has Alzheimer's, diabetes, depression and sometimes very difficult to handle because of her narcissistic traits, 3) I work far away from home using train not car - sometimes 12 hours absent from home 4) I have sometimes a difficult brother who wants to take/borrow money from my mother's savings and I am afraid that we will spend that money and you never know what will happen with her...he also has narcissistic traits...used cocaine with her ex-girlfriend and ended up in prison accused of rape and physical abuse (which I am not sure that he is really able to do that but her girlfriend took revenge on him because of his unfair behavior probably).
Fears of future and that I will not get the inheritance that belongs to me because I suspect that my brother will not be fair to me although he convinces me that I am his sister and that he will never do something to do damage to me. But who knows...he is using tricks to get what he wants like "borrowing" money from my mom. I would never take 5,000 euro now that my mother's future is not sure. In 10 years I am probably going to retire as a teacher and my pension will most likely be cut in half and we in Croatia have a low standard and I must be very careful and spend only on food and necessary clothes not to get into minus bank account. What will happen with my inheritance, with her savings, with my life etc...I feel I need to grow up suddenly and do drastic changes which I slowly manage to do. I am becoming really disciplined in stuff but this with food is extremely difficult. It's like my stomach is boiling and asking for food constantly. Nervousness, gastritis, anxiety, hormones, life-threatening events?