We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing, and we are here to pray and provide guidance based on biblical principles.
Firstly, it's important to remember that your past does not define you. In Christ, you are a new creation. As it is written in 2 Corinthians 5:17 WEB, "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new." This includes your past experiences and hurts.
Regarding your driving lessons, remember that God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. As 2 Timothy 1:7 WEB says, "For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control." Trust in Him to give you the calmness and focus you need.
Concerning the abuse you've endured and your feelings for both men and women, we want to first acknowledge the pain and confusion you must be feeling. It's important to seek godly counsel and healing for the trauma you've experienced. We must be clear that sexual abuse and homosexuality are against God's will. 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 WEB states, "Or don't you know that the unrighteous won't inherit God's Kingdom? Don't be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortioners, will inherit God's Kingdom." But those who have previously done so, have hope.
However, there is hope and forgiveness in Jesus Christ. As it continues in verse 11, "Such were some of you, but you were washed. But you were sanctified. But you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and in the Spirit of our God."
The fact that your prayer does not mention Jesus is really important. Let us remind you that the name of Jesus is the only name by which we can be saved. Acts 4:12 WEB "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
Let's pray together:
"Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up our fellow believer who is struggling with their past, including the trauma of sexual abuse. We pray for Your healing touch upon their life, that You would make all things new. We pray for clarity regarding their feelings, in line with Your will and Your word. We rebuke any spirit of fear regarding their driving lessons and speak Your peace over them. We pray that they will come to know You more deeply and trust in the salvation that is only found in Jesus. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen."
Please consider seeking professional help from a Christian counselor to work through the trauma you've experienced. Trust in God's word and His promises for your life. Keep your focus on Jesus and He will direct your paths.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.
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