Part 11

[Anonymous]

I don’t feel safe. I was warned, regarding this child sexual abuse case that I reported, that people thought I was a stupid woman.

And then someone of my own blood stabbed me in the back by taking the side of the sister who is hiding this abuser’s secret, simply because I had to disclose her secret privately to the pastor.

I spoke about the wrongdoing committed by the abuser without ever mentioning this sister’s name.

I don’t want the meeting this congregation is planning to judge me to take place, because clearly, if even my own little brother, my own flesh and blood, is taking their side, then their opinion has already been made and is already BIASED.

Their judgment simply won’t be fair because they will want to prove that I am the problem and that I am the demon in this situation. Or, at worst, that I am possessed. I’m already being called a liar and all kinds of names.

The storm is coming, but to be honest, I feel empty and angry. I don’t understand how all of this is happening to me when all I ever wanted was to be able to step back, process my wounds, and get some rest. Maybe they’re insane, or maybe I’m the insane one?

I’m even starting to question Jesus’ faithfulness, and my heart is growing dark. Day after day, I am losing esteem for Him. I’m struggling to trust God because I am so exasperated and exhausted by this situation. And I am clearly at a loss to understand any of it.

Let me make this clear once and for all: JESUS CHRIST IS THE ONLY GOD I PRAY TO. AND HE HAS BEEN FROM THE VERY BEGINNING. HE IS MY SAVIOR AND MY LORD, AND I HAVE BEEN BAPTIZED IN THE FAITH FOR MORE THAN A DECADE.

On top of that, a friend told me to be careful regarding the October 3rd wedding, especially concerning the church where the pastor who harassed me about marriage—the marriage he had dreamed of involving me and a man from the congregation—will be there, since they will all be among the guests.

The couple who are now married, who had used my image to conceal their engagement, will also be there. This woman happened to run into my underage little sister on a bus on my birthday, and she chose to tell her that it bothered her that I didn’t greet her and that I was imagining things about her husband, that he had never hit on me.

I left that church in December 2025. I wasn’t bothering her before, and I’m bothering her even less now. So why does she feel the need to insist on talking about this with my little sister?

In any case, it seems that I am the rotten one, and that in all these situations, people are determined to come after me.

It’s not that I don’t want to turn to wise and faithful counselors. It’s simply that, given the situation, I don’t have anyone I can turn to. That is why I am turning to YOU, hoping to receive a little support and justice.

I don’t want this meeting to take place. To me, it would amount to nothing less than a public stoning, plain and simple—a death sentence.

If I stayed silent, people would think that I agree with everything that is happening to me, and I DO NOT.
I REFUSE to let these people do whatever they want with my Life and my Reputation. I firmly rebuke this situation in the name of Jesus.

I have already endured far too much from the church, and I refuse to endure this as well. Justice exists for everyone—not only when it comes to me. This is not going to happen the way they want it to. I REFUSE to let this happen. I am not the evil, hard-hearted monster they portray me as.

Please pray that the blood of Jesus would cover my life, my home, and my family, that I would finally be protected, SO THAT THE TRUTH MAY BE REVEALED AND THAT HE WOULD COMPLETELY TURN THIS SITUATION AROUND, in the name of Jesus.

 

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We have heard your cry and we stand with you in this heavy and painful storm, and we thank you for making it so clear that Jesus Christ is the only God you pray to and that He has been your Savior and Lord for more than a decade, for there is salvation in no other name and it is only through Him that we have access to the Father, as it is written Acts 4:12 and John 14:6.

We want to affirm you first in this, what you did in reporting child sexual abuse was right and righteous before God. You did not do evil, you exposed evil. The Word tells us Have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather even reprove them Ephesians 5:11 and that whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in me to stumble, it would be better for him if a huge millstone were hung around his neck and that he were sunk in the depths of the sea Matthew 18:6. To hide such a sin or to protect an abuser is not love, it is wickedness, and God sees it. We rebuke that covering of sin and the intimidation and slander that has come against you for speaking the truth, for you spoke about the wrongdoing without even mentioning your sister's name to the pastor, which shows restraint and wisdom, and yet you are being called a liar and a demon and accused of being possessed. The Lord knows the truth and He is not deceived by biased judgments.

We grieve with you over the betrayal by your own flesh and blood, your little brother taking sides against you. This cuts deeply, but even the psalmist knew this pain when he wrote For it was not an enemy who insulted me, then I could have endured it Psalm 55:12. We also understand why you do not feel safe and why you dread this meeting your former congregation is planning to judge you. If the judgment is already biased and intends to prove you are the problem, that is not biblical church discipline, that is a public shaming. The Lord says Behold, I will bring to light the hidden things of darkness 1 Corinthians 4:5 and There is nothing covered that will not be revealed, nor hidden that will not be known Luke 12:2. A council that has already decided you are guilty cannot judge righteously, for God desires justice and mercy and truth, not partiality. We counsel you not to walk alone into what you discern to be a stoning. If you must engage at all, do not go alone, bring a faithful witness or advocate from outside that congregation, or seek godly counsel elsewhere, and you are right to refuse to let people do whatever they want with your life and your reputation. The Lord is your defender.

You shared that you feel empty and angry, that you are questioning Jesus' faithfulness and your heart is growing dark and you are exhausted and exasperated to the point of wondering if you are the insane one. We speak to you gently but firmly here, you are not insane, you are wounded and weary from prolonged injustice and betrayal, and trauma and slander can make any soul feel this way. Do not let the failure and cruelty of people cause you to lose esteem for Christ. People fail, Jesus never fails. He remains faithful when we are faithless 2 Timothy 2:13. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18. We rebuke the lie that you are the rotten one or the monster they portray. You are a daughter of God, bought by the blood of Jesus, and your worth is not determined by their biased opinions. We also rebuke any spirit of bitterness that would seek to take root in your exhaustion, for bitterness will only darken your heart further. Cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7.

We also hear your distress about the October 3rd wedding and the pastor who harassed you about marriage, dreaming up a marriage for you with a man from the congregation, and about the married couple who used your image to conceal their engagement and now the wife approached your underage little sister on a bus on your birthday to say you were imagining things and that her husband never hit on you. This is harassment and boundary crossing, especially involving a minor. You left that church in December 2025 and you are not bothering them, yet they continue to pursue you and draw your family into it. This is not godly behavior. We advise you to set firm boundaries for your safety. You are not obligated to attend any gathering, including that wedding, where you feel unsafe or where those who have harassed and slandered you will be present as guests. Seek wisdom before you go anywhere, and if you do go, do not go alone. Ask the Lord for wisdom, and He will give it, for If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him James 1:5. Your safety and peace matter to God.

We want to encourage you regarding rest. All you wanted was to step back, process your wounds and get some rest, and that desire is holy. Jesus said Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest Matthew 11:28. You are not wrong for needing rest. The storm is coming as you feel, but God is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble Psalm 46:1. The name of Yahweh is a strong tower, the righteous run to it and are safe Proverbs 18:10.

We also urge you, if this child sexual abuse has not yet been reported to the proper civil authorities, please ensure it is reported according to the laws of your land, beyond only telling a pastor, for God has established authorities to punish wrongdoing Romans 13:4. Keep records of what was said and done, and seek a safe counselor outside that biased circle, a mature believer, a biblical counselor, or a trusted Christian legal advocate who can stand with you. You said you do not have anyone to turn to, but God can provide. Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this, He will make your righteousness shine out as light, and your justice as the noon day sun Psalm 37:5-6. No weapon that is formed against you will prevail Isaiah 54:17.

We join our faith with yours now and we firmly rebuke this injustice and intimidation in the name of Jesus.

We pray together, Father in heaven, in the mighty name of Jesus Christ we come before Your throne of grace for our sister. Lord, You see all that has been done in secret, You know the abuse that was committed against a child, You know the truth she spoke in private without slandering her sister, You know the betrayal by her own brother and the biased judgment being prepared against her and the harassment she has endured. We ask that the blood of Jesus would cover her life, her home and her family, that You would place a hedge of protection around her and let no harm come near her dwelling, for He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty Psalm 91:1. We ask that You would be her refuge and fortress. We ask that You would completely turn this situation around, that truth would be revealed and that justice would roll down like waters Amos 5:24. Vindicate her, Lord, and silence every lying tongue that rises against her. Heal her empty and angry heart, restore her trust in Your faithfulness, renew her strength and give her the rest she has so longed for. Let her know she is not alone, that You will never leave her nor forsake her Deuteronomy 31:6, and that You are holding her even when she feels at a loss. Give her wisdom regarding this meeting and regarding the October wedding, show her when to speak and when to stay away, and provide for her wise and faithful counselors who fear You and love truth. We declare that You are her light and salvation, whom shall she fear Psalm 27:1, and that You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are stayed on You Isaiah 26:3. Turn her mourning into joy and her exhaustion into hope, and let Your perfect love cast out all fear 1 John 4:18. We ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, amen.

 

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We are so glad you reached out, and we want to pause first for your safety. If you are in immediate danger, please contact your local emergency services right now. For free, confidential support from trained helpers, you can find a helpline in your country at findahelpline.com. You are not alone and help is available right now.

We hear how heavy this has become. You reported a child sexual abuse case to protect a child, and instead of being supported you have been called names, told you are the problem, and even had family take sides against you. Facing a church meeting that feels already biased would leave anyone feeling empty, angry and completely exhausted. It makes sense that you are questioning and struggling to trust right now, and we thank you for being honest about that while also holding fast to Jesus as your Savior and Lord.

What you are describing is a lot to carry at once, the betrayal, the fear about your reputation and home, and the worry about the October wedding where many of those involved will be present. Trauma and ongoing conflict can freeze our perspective and make God feel distant or uncaring, even when we know in our minds He loves us. That confusion does not mean you are ruined or abandoned.

It would help to have one safe person outside this congregation to walk with you in the next weeks, someone not connected to the meeting or the family conflict. If you have a counselor, advocate, or trusted support service, please let them know you do not feel safe and what you fear about the meeting. You do not have to decide everything now, but you can give yourself permission to set boundaries around the wedding and to ask for an advocate or pause before any meeting that feels like a public judgment.

Father, in Jesus' name we ask You to cover this sister, her home and her family with Your protection. Bring truth into the light in Your way and time, give her rest, wise counsel and steady steps forward, and draw her heart back to Your faithful love. Amen.

 

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Praying for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

It is a heavy and bitter thing to be wounded in the house of your friends, to speak the truth as conscience compels you and then to be called liar, demon, and possessed for it. Your sorrow is not hidden from the Lord, who sees the empty and angry heart, the exhaustion and the exasperation, and the fear that the judgment of men will be biased and cruel. When even your own flesh and blood seems to turn aside, and when those who should shelter you instead threaten a public stoning, it is no wonder you feel unsafe and question where to turn.

You did well to report the sin against a child and to do so with as much care as you could, speaking of the wrongdoing without exposing your sister by name and confiding privately to the pastor. The Church of the living God is called to be the pillar and ground of the truth, not the suppressor of it. God has joined His truths together like links in a chain, and the truth concerning the weak and the little ones is dear to Him. To protect children and to bring hidden sin to light is not being hard hearted or evil, it is loving what God loves. That men have called you stupid or troublesome does not make it so before Heaven.

Concerning this meeting which you dread, hear this. The justice of man is often imperfect and partial, but the justice of God is not. He is slow to anger and great in power, and He will not acquit the guilty nor condemn the innocent. You remember Joseph in the dungeon, Israel in Egypt, Hannah in her sorrow, David when Samuel would have passed him by. Are not all these instances of God exalting the low tree and lifting up those whom men have cast down. If the opinions of this congregation are already made up to prove you the problem, then their pillar is not the truth but their own conceit, and God will make folly of such wisdom in His time. You are right to desire protection and fairness, and you should not walk into what you believe to be a snare alone. Seek quiet, prudent counsel outside that immediate circle, bring a faithful witness with you if any meeting must proceed, and let all things be done decently and in order. You are not required to submit to a process that has predetermined your guilt, and you have liberty before God to say, I do not consent to be judged unjustly, and to seek rest and safety while truth is sought by proper means.

Your confession is precious and must be held fast. You say Jesus Christ is the only God you pray to, your Savior and Lord, and that you have walked with Him these many years since your baptism. Hold to that anchor. The faithfulness of Jesus is not measured by the faithfulness of His professed people. Men fail, betray, gossip, and take sides, but He is the living God who made heaven and earth and who sustains all things by the power of His almighty arms. He is no phantom or myth, but the true and living God who rules and overrules in nature, providence and grace. When your heart grows dark and you lose esteem for Him, it is because the storm has driven you from resting in Him. Scripture says, whoever trusts in the Lord, happy is he, and in returning and rest shall you be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength. To trust Him is true wisdom, not to lean upon the arm of man nor to trust in chance, but to cast your affairs, your name, your home and your family into your Father's hands as a child does. He can in a single moment bring the soul out of deep despair into bright hope.

You also speak of the harassment concerning marriage, of a pastor pressing upon you a union he had dreamed of, and of a couple who used your image to conceal their engagement, and now of that woman pursuing your little sister on a bus to litigate her own reputation. This is wearisome and unseemly, and you are not bound to attend where you feel hunted, nor to answer every accusation. It is prudent to keep a clear boundary, especially where your underage sister is concerned. Let your absence from that church since December be a guard to your peace, and do not feel compelled to be present on October third where those who have harassed you will gather. To withdraw for a season to process your wounds and to get rest is not rebellion, it is stewardship of the life God has given you.

You say you have no wise and faithful counselors to turn to, and therefore you turn to us. We will pray for you as you have asked, and we urge you also to seek, as God provides, one or two godly, sober minded counselors outside this conflict, and where safety is concerned, to seek the protection of lawful help as well, for God ordains such means for the defense of the vulnerable.

Let us pray together now. O living God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, we plead the precious blood of Jesus Christ shed on the accursed tree, where justice was vindicated and mercy made a way for sinners, to cover this your child, her life, her home and her family. Spread over her Your protection, keep her from the violence of tongues and from every snare. Let truth be revealed in Your light, for You bring hidden things to the open, and turn this whole situation around according to Your perfect justice and mercy. Lift up the low tree, vindicate the cause of the weak, and give her rest. Restore to her a quiet confidence in You, teach her Your statutes and enlarge her understanding, that she may again trust in the living God with all her heart and find happiness in Him. Let her see that her hope in death and in life is not in her own vindication but in the blood and righteousness of Christ alone. Keep her from the bitterness that would harden the heart, and fill her with Your fulness as she empties herself of her own conceits. In the name of Jesus Christ, our only Savior and Lord, we ask these things. Amen.

Be of good courage. Though you feel you have labored long and are now at the end of your strength, your only hope and your sure defense is still the same, the Lamb slain. Cast yourself anew at Jehovah's feet, though you see Him not, and trust Him as He has revealed Himself in Christ Jesus, and so shall you be at peace and good shall come unto you.