jennifer123
Servant
Please pray that I lose weight. I'm supposed to weigh 188. I haven't weighed myself in a while. I don't have a scale; I've been having my daughter's doctor weigh me, and the last time I was weighed, I weighed 188. And I want to weigh 118. I've been drinking a lot of soda lately and eating more. It's really hard because I love food and I love soda especially. So please pray that the great Lord does something about it. I want to be able to wear cute clothes and look great and I want to look great for my boyfriend. I want to be able to wear a bikini and no one say you're fat. I've been so unhappy with the way I look. I've been trying my hardest to lose weight. I have workout videos and I try doing them when I can, but I don't get to do it as much because I have a daughter I have to look after. She is almost 6 months old. I just feel like I'm not good enough for anything. I feel worthless, helpless, ugly, fat. I just feel like nobody loves me or wants me in their life. I just want to feel good about myself, I just want to be happy. I've been really depressed. Sometimes I feel like a bad person for no reason. I don't know why. Just please pray that the Lord does something about it. That I lose weight and be happy and that everything works out with me and my boyfriend and that me, him, and our daughter stay a family and love each other and always be there for each other no matter what. I've even thought about starving myself, but it never works out when I try doing it because I always see food and I think about food then I eat. And I eat when I get bored, that's one thing too. And I eat when I'm not hungry. And I eat when I'm upset. And I think emotions have a lot to do with it too. Just please pray that God does something. I believe if I was skinny I would be a little bit more happy and if things work out with me and my boyfriend. I really do want to marry him. I've even talked to him about it, and he was like I will marry you if you get a job. I don't know. And his sister, the one I don't like, she was like I don't ever see him getting married. And she was like one time you and him won't be together forever, I promise. And it hurt me because I want to be with him forever because I really love him. So please pray that God helps me to lose weight and everything works out with me and my boyfriend and that our daughter stays healthy and God leads her down the right path as she grows.
