EEPW
Disciple of Prayer
I have been working very hard at work and at school. I am almost done with my degree and have just a few weeks to go. I also have a major thesis to write which is due no later than July 1st. It has to be strong and logical bringing up both emperical evidence and ethical moral arguments that will convince someone on the opposite side. One of the classes that I will start in 3 weeks (the class will end in mid July) I have taken before and got a C- which I have to improve. The two classes I am in I hope to do better in my grades. In work I have been given extra duties which really are exciting and can help down the road but the position nor the pay has changed. I am concerned about a position which will be opening which while it would be good would require me to work evenings and also one week of over nights. I am just starting to get to know a lady and I am concerned how this position would effect courtship. Even if she is not the right person I still pray for a faithful Christ filled joyful marriage and family for myself. Finances are obviously important and while I have tried to save for the future I don't have much. I am a convert and years ago when I was not trying to follow Christ I married and then divorced we had a daughter- who I love. I don't communicate as much with her as I would hope and most of the time she is asking about money and less about time with me. My ex has moved on to a marriage of her own years ago. Maybe it is not God's will that I marry and have a family-- I never really had a faithful marriage, or engagement or family life. If that is not His will then I ask God to show me what is and grant me peace to follow Him. I am pretty stressed with work, school and the rest. I am worried about school and finishing well along with doing well on the thesis. I don't know about work and it is a concern. I also don't know as far as career what God wants me to do. I ask for a job that I love doing, that I can use my faith even more, that I can help others, support a family well and if possible to work monday through friday on a regular day shift. Finally, my stress and depression seems to be coming back. I am trying to get to the gym and prayer more which helps but I need to do more. My daughter is not attending church and this worries me greatly. My brother is suffering with depression and alchohol abuse and could use prayers. I am not feeling at peace right now-- at a time when I should be thanking God and I realize that much of this is emotional related. However, I did have people pray over me recently who stated they felt I was being oppressed spiritually. So I do ask for prayers, healing, deliverance and God's grace. Thank you.
