boazgirl
Account Closed
I am getting way stronger and sensing a breakthrough. Apparently, there is a check sent in the mail 2 months ago during our Canadian Mail strike by my in-laws and it was lost; it never came. Now they want us to drive 8 hours to go to meet them in a different city, which I can barely afford to go to. What if it is a hoax, as they do weird things? I don't know what to think; they never would help us and know nothing of our issues as they hate me and usually would like to see us on the street starving, especially me. They totally misunderstand me and turn everything I do for the bad...so much history there, and my husband's sisters will be there, and one is so mean and conniving. I feel as though it is like walking into a den of lions...but maybe this is from God. I don't get it and don't know what to do. I need divine intervention now. I read somewhere that God can be so angered he will turn his back on you if you ignored him too long, and I backslid and ignored him many times...but I am sure he has forgiven me, and I hold no unforgiveness in my heart at least I have tried to let everything go. I am a pretty forgiving person, almost too much so. The problem is I don't like being a victim all the time of the unkindness of others, so I just retreat as to not fight. Please pray for me; I am confused, but I sense God has something planned...and scared...a bit. So many of you that have prayed are strong prayer warriors with strength beyond mine; help me pray. Small miracles happen every day to me, but nothing to save my financial situation and my family relationships...I don't want to lose my husband or kids over all this; we need a miracle. My daughter is moving out and angry all the time; I need God to protect her as I can not and I don't want to lose her forever. Sorry to be so needy sounding, but I suffer alone in my own home and am so tired as I pray 24/7 and beg God to help. I love you all and have made so many wonderful friends that hold me up daily, and I do feel that strength; I am sure it is from you and my couple of text mentors here in Canada.
