boazgirl
Account Closed
I am getting way stronger and sensing a breakthrough. Apparently there is a check sent in the mail 2 months ago during our Canadian Mail strike by my inlaws and it was lost never came. Now they want us to drive 8 hours to go to meet them in a different city I can barely afford to go, what if it is a hoax as they do weird things. I don't know what to think they never would help us and know nothing of our issues as they hate me and usually would like to see us on the street starving especially me. They totally misunderstand me and turn everything I do for the bad...so much history there and my husband's sisters will be there and one is so mean and caniving I feel as though it is like walking into a den of lions....but maybe this is from God I don't get it and don't know what to do. I need devine intervention now I read somewhere that God can be so angered he will turn his back on you if you ignored him too long and I backslid and ignored him many times....but I am sure he has forgiven me and I hold no unforgiveness in my heart at least I have tried to let everything go...I am a pretty forgiving person almost too much so. The problem is I don't like being a victim all the time of the unkindness of others so I just retreat as to not fight. Please pray for me I am confused, but I sense God has something planned....and scared....a bit....so many of you that have prayed are strong pray warriors with strength beyond mine help me pray. Small miracles happen every day to me, but nothing to save my finanacial situation and my family relationships....I don't want to loose my husband or kids over all this we need a miracle. My daughter is moving out and angry all the time, I need God to protect her as I can not and I don't want to loose her forever. Sorry to be so needy sounding, but I suffer alone in my own home and am so tired as I pray 24/7 and beg God to help. I love you all and have made so many wonderful friends that hold me up daily and I do feel that strenght I am sure it is from you and my couple of txt mentors here in Canada.
