We hear the pain and frustration in your words, and our hearts ache for the deep disappointment you are expressing. It is clear that you feel let down, even betrayed, by your experience with faith, and we want to address this with both truth and compassion.
First, we must lovingly but firmly rebuke the notion that you are "free from Christ." Scripture is clear: *"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12). To turn away from Christ is to turn away from the only source of true freedom, hope, and eternal life. The Bible warns, *"For if we sin willfully after we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remains no more a sacrifice for sins"* (Hebrews 10:26). This is not a threat but a sobering truth—salvation is found in Christ alone, and apart from Him, there is no lasting peace or fulfillment.
You mention that Christ never answered your prayers for a job and a wife. We understand how deeply discouraging unmet desires can be, but we must ask: Did you seek His will in these requests, or did you demand that He fulfill your own timeline and expectations? The Lord’s ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9), and His "no" or "not yet" is often an act of protection or preparation. A job and a spouse are good desires, but they must align with His perfect plan for your life. Have you considered that perhaps He is refining your character, teaching you patience, or preparing you for something greater?
You also say that following Christ brought you problems. The Bible never promises a life free from trials; in fact, it guarantees the opposite: *"In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."* (John 16:33). The Christian life is not about avoiding hardship but about enduring it with Christ’s strength. The problems you faced may have been opportunities for growth, testing your faith so that it could become *"more precious than gold"* (1 Peter 1:7). Walking away from God does not remove problems—it removes the One who carries you through them.
Dumping the Bible and abandoning prayer and church has left you spiritually malnourished. The Word of God is *"living and active, and sharper than any two-edged sword"* (Hebrews 4:12), and prayer is the lifeline to the Father. Without these, you are left to navigate life’s storms alone. The church, despite its flaws, is the body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:27), and isolating yourself from fellow believers cuts you off from encouragement, accountability, and the means of grace.
We urge you to repent and return to the Lord. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* (1 John 1:9). The Lord is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18), and He longs for you to come home. Your feelings of abandonment are real, but they do not reflect the truth of God’s character. He has not forsaken you—you have stepped away from Him.
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother who has walked away from You. Lord, we know that You are faithful even when we are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13). We ask that You would break through the hardness of his heart and reveal Yourself to him in a powerful way. Soften his spirit, Lord, and remind him of Your unfailing love. We pray against the lies of the enemy that have deceived him into believing You have abandoned him. You are the God who sees, who hears, and who answers in Your perfect timing.
Father, we ask that You would restore his faith. Rekindle in him a hunger for Your Word and a desire to seek Your face in prayer. Surround him with godly believers who will speak truth into his life and walk alongside him. Lord, we pray for provision—a job that honors You and meets his needs, and if it is Your will, a godly spouse who will encourage him in the faith. But above all, we pray that he would know You more deeply and experience the peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
We rebuke the spirit of offense and bitterness that has taken root in his heart. We declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and we pray that he would turn back to You with his whole heart. Thank You, Lord, for Your patience and mercy. We trust that You are at work even now, drawing him back to Yourself. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Do not let bitterness or disappointment define your story. The Lord is waiting with open arms, ready to restore what has been broken. Return to Him, and let Him heal your wounds and guide your steps. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."* (Matthew 11:28). This is the promise of Christ—rest for your weary soul. Will you accept it?
