Jesus_is_king
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I have been a Christian for 3 years & have been at my church for just over a year now & I am still not baptized. I was not grown up in a Christian household, so I wasn't even Christened. I feel conviction or the same sort of feeling I felt just before I started going to church, I feel the tug to get baptized, but I'm scared. What I mean by this is, as someone who is short & doesn't like going under water, more so in a massive pool, I can't bear the thought of the losing control over my legs sorta thing if that makes sense. Recently, I haven't really thought about it, but when I do the same fear comes up. But, I don't know, I feel the tug to do it by the Holy Spirit, but I don't know if it's as much? I don't like to say this, but I still see it as a works, even though I know that's not the case. How do I combat that lie?
I've prayed about it to God & cried out to Him about the fact that I'm genuinely scared to experience that. Of course, I wanna get baptized, but not in a massive pool, I wanna get baptized in somewhere where I can be sat down & be dunked in. That feels safer for me & I've been seen it happen online on some of the videos I've watched. I don't like this feeling of being scared of something that is supposed to be sacred & a declaration of my faith. Even that sometimes feels scary to think about, which I especially don't like to feel that way.
Maybe you could pray for an opportunity to come up where I could get baptized, but not in a massive pool, somewhere I can sit down & get dunked.
Also, I don't have anything to wear or at least not that I know of that would be appropriate as swim wear & modest. So that's something else stopping me from being baptized. I know I shouldn't worry about clothes, as it says in Matthew, but that is still in the back of my mind.
I don't know how God is gonna do it, but I have to trust that however it happens, I will get baptized, ideally not in a big pool, but somewhere I can sit & get dunked. So I pray that the opportunity for that comes in His timing.
I haven't yet talked to my pastors about it, but I did talk to one of the members of my church, as I have her on socials. She has helped me reassure me a little, but I still feel that fear, even though I know that's not from God to feel fearful.
Update:
I spoke to one of my pastors about it on Sunday after the service, only because God reminded me. We were both about to leave & then God reminded me & I was like oh yeah & told her. So I had to send an email to someone at the church, but there's 2 things, I'm still scared & works based mindset, even though I know that's not what it is, Jesus gets us into heaven & the other thing is the email didn't send, so I don't know what to do, as that is the right email, because the person has already sent stuff out to church members with that account, so what do I do? Also, it sounded like my pastor was saying about if I wanted to get baptized this year, that it would have to be somewhere else, as ig they don't do other adult baptisms other than the one in summer, as that's a neighbours pool. But I don't wanna get baptised somewhere else. I don't even know how that would work.
Thank you to anyone who replies or prays for me. God bless you
I've prayed about it to God & cried out to Him about the fact that I'm genuinely scared to experience that. Of course, I wanna get baptized, but not in a massive pool, I wanna get baptized in somewhere where I can be sat down & be dunked in. That feels safer for me & I've been seen it happen online on some of the videos I've watched. I don't like this feeling of being scared of something that is supposed to be sacred & a declaration of my faith. Even that sometimes feels scary to think about, which I especially don't like to feel that way.
Maybe you could pray for an opportunity to come up where I could get baptized, but not in a massive pool, somewhere I can sit down & get dunked.
Also, I don't have anything to wear or at least not that I know of that would be appropriate as swim wear & modest. So that's something else stopping me from being baptized. I know I shouldn't worry about clothes, as it says in Matthew, but that is still in the back of my mind.
I don't know how God is gonna do it, but I have to trust that however it happens, I will get baptized, ideally not in a big pool, but somewhere I can sit & get dunked. So I pray that the opportunity for that comes in His timing.
I haven't yet talked to my pastors about it, but I did talk to one of the members of my church, as I have her on socials. She has helped me reassure me a little, but I still feel that fear, even though I know that's not from God to feel fearful.
Update:
I spoke to one of my pastors about it on Sunday after the service, only because God reminded me. We were both about to leave & then God reminded me & I was like oh yeah & told her. So I had to send an email to someone at the church, but there's 2 things, I'm still scared & works based mindset, even though I know that's not what it is, Jesus gets us into heaven & the other thing is the email didn't send, so I don't know what to do, as that is the right email, because the person has already sent stuff out to church members with that account, so what do I do? Also, it sounded like my pastor was saying about if I wanted to get baptized this year, that it would have to be somewhere else, as ig they don't do other adult baptisms other than the one in summer, as that's a neighbours pool. But I don't wanna get baptised somewhere else. I don't even know how that would work.
Thank you to anyone who replies or prays for me. God bless you

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