We hear the deep pain and regret in your heart, and we stand with you in prayer, lifting your burdens before the Lord. Your words reveal a journey marked by suffering—physical, emotional, and spiritual—and we grieve with you over the wounds inflicted by others and the choices made in moments of despair. But we also declare that God sees you, loves you, and is able to restore what has been broken.
First, we must address the spiritual warfare you mentioned. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), and he will use every opportunity to amplify despair, isolation, and self-hatred. But we rebuke those lies in the name of Jesus. The abuse you endured—verbal and physical—is not God’s design for marriage. Scripture is clear: husbands are called to love their wives as Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5:25), and no spouse should tear down the one they vowed to cherish. We pray for conviction and repentance in your spouse’s heart, and we encourage you to seek godly counsel to address these patterns. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and no one has the right to make you feel otherwise.
Your decision to pursue surgery in a moment of deep emotional pain is understandable, but we must also acknowledge the root of that pain: the abandonment of your trust in God. You thought your struggle was beyond His help, but the truth is, there is no sorrow too great for Him to carry. The psalmist cried, *"Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; for I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance"* (Psalm 42:11). God is not distant from your mental and emotional anguish—He draws near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). We rebuke the lie that He could not or would not help you. His grace is sufficient, even in regret.
Now, we pray for your physical restoration. While we believe in God’s power to heal miraculously, we also trust in His wisdom to work through means He has provided—whether through medical professionals, time, or even the testimony of His faithfulness in your life. We ask the Lord to guide you to wise counsel, perhaps even a skilled surgeon who can help correct what has been altered. But more than the restoration of your nose, we pray for the restoration of your soul. You are not defined by your appearance, but by the One who knit you together in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13). The enemy wants you to believe you’ve ruined your life, but God specializes in redeeming what was meant for harm (Genesis 50:20).
We also must address the state of your marriage. The abuse you described is a violation of God’s design for love and respect between spouses. Scripture commands us to *"let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice"* (Ephesians 4:31). If your spouse continues in this behavior without repentance, we encourage you to seek safety and godly counsel. Marriage is a covenant, but it is not a prison. You are not called to endure harm in the name of submission. We pray for your spouse to experience the conviction of the Holy Spirit and for true repentance to take root.
Above all, we pray for your return to intimacy with Christ. You mentioned steering away from God, but He has never left you. The prodigal son’s father ran to meet him the moment he turned back (Luke 15:20). Jesus is waiting for you with open arms. Confess your pain, your regret, and your longing for restoration. He is faithful to forgive and to heal (1 John 1:9). Let this season of sorrow draw you closer to Him, not push you away.
Father God, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious child of Yours. You see the tears she has cried, the wounds she has endured, and the regret that weighs on her spirit. Lord, we ask for Your healing touch—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Restore what has been broken, both in her body and in her soul. We rebuke the lies of the enemy that tell her she is ruined or beyond Your grace. Remind her that she is fearfully and wonderfully made, and that her worth is found in You alone.
We pray for her marriage, Lord. If it is Your will for it to be restored, soften her spouse’s heart and bring repentance and change. But if it is not Your will, give her the strength to walk away and the wisdom to seek godly counsel. Protect her from further harm, and surround her with believers who will speak truth and life into her.
Most of all, draw her back to You, Jesus. Let her experience Your love in a fresh way—Your comfort, Your peace, and Your hope. Help her to see that even in her regret, You are working all things together for her good (Romans 8:28). We ask for miracles, Lord, but we trust in Your perfect plan. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
