Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I can't think of a way to describe what is going through my mind. I feel a sence of doubt, a fear of the unknown. I am scared about the future. I don't think my parents understand me. I don't think anyone understands me. I have trouble making and keeping friends. Especially with women, and I need someone who will understand me, and be able to communicate with me. I need a real, authentic, loyal friend who will stick with me during good and bad times, and love me for me. But I can't find such a person. I wait for God to bring me this friend. I feel as if my efforts, and prayers are all for not. I thought surely God would have introduced me to someone who just wants to love and be loved. I want a friendship that last more then a couple of days. Or weeks, or even years. I want a friendship that last forever. I can't do it though. There's always a catch. I aam starting to believe that I just can't offer anything. I wish thongs would change, that I could make friends with women, but I can't do that either. what can I do? I can't do anything. I feel like everything in my life going by without me. I wish God would give me a special friend to hang out with. I hope He will give that friend. I just don't know though if He will. I don't understand why I can't make friends. I frustrated me.
