nebrpo
Humble Servant of All
No relief in sight. I know God made everything we see in six days, but tomorrow will be the last day He can move to help my family...my two young boys and myself. I have turned every direction known to man to get the help we need and have been denied in every effort. I graduated from a Respiratory Therapy Program last year; however, our vehicle broke down the last week of school. I trusted the wrong person to fix it, who took money, dismantled the vehicle and never repaired. The vehicle was ultimately sold to pay for our rent for a month. I was able to scrape up the funds to pay for my first credentials, which are essentially worthless without the second ones, which consist of two tests, costing $200 each. I applied for several entry-level positions, but haven't gotten them, because the employers know they're just a stepping stone. My parents aren't supportive of my efforts, and were displeased with my choice of education. Both could've helped me, but chose to make promises they never fulfilled, mocking me instead when I questioned. I'm exceedingly angry with both of them. I know The Bible says to honor our parents, but it also says not to provoke our children to anger. Also, my main role at this point is to be a dad...the opportunity to be a son has long since past. Regrettably, my dad was never around - left 6 months before my birth, never to look back again. My mother was abusive and demeaning, because she felt betrayed by the man she loved so greatly, and the anger wound up being unleashed upon my sister and me. (My sister left this world 25 years ago due to the destruction that was caused.) Also, having been born with major physical differences has been thrown in my face several times by my mother. I don't wish to have such anger with my parents, but I am angry; however, I am more hurt that they would also reject my children. I ask for peace from Him regarding my parents. I have prayed so often for them to change, but they see no need to do so, and God can't change a person's will. Therefore, I pray for my ability to contend with them, or to sever ties completely, since they apparently intend to cause me grief. (I'm not just someone going off; rather, the history of abuse these two to be detrimental to myself, the sister whose life was taken trying to contend with the pain caused her by my mother and the kids my father raised, who are dysfunctional in society, because of their cult ties.) I ask for prayer that my boys' and my circumstances will be turned around miraculously, and that we will regain all that has been stolen from us in the last few years. My motives and efforts to better our situation were sincere, but they were negated by attacks from the enemy. I prayed that The Lord would help see me through school, which He did, then Satan reared up and charged into the picture. Since then, we haven't had any success in trying to get ahead.
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