I don't know if this helps, but I have been through similar events and feelings. For me, I discovered I have the rarest personality type. I honestly thought I was some kind of freak, but I'm just different. Do I wish i was like other people, and able to make friends, and read social cues perfectly, etc. Sure, but I don't and I can't, so I have to work inside God's framework. I did several online personality tests, and even though I can't really change me, it did help me to understand myself. I don't feel quite so bad as I used to. I hope and pray you find your friend. I know it often takes a friend, to be a friend. In other words, WE often have to do the initiating, (plant the seed of friendship), and cultivating too (water, water, water...). For me, this can feel like hard WORK, maybe for you too? Bad experiences have left me with major trust issues, maybe for you too? I do know that with God's help, we can both get through. I wish I could do more for you than pray and send my love to you. Be blessed my friend in Christ. Amen.