Anonymous
Beloved of All
I've been praying a good five month's here. I have someone who is always on my heart and I'm always drawn to pray for. I didn't like some things about our friendship and I ended it. I believe she has issues and in turn some of her actions were confusing and hurting. She has had a rough life. We were friends and buried in me were deeper feelings I kept suppressed. I thought being friends were enough. They came out later and she found it all here along with what I thought was wrong with her. I asked God to remove these feeling but I can't. I prayed elsewhere and I think she found me again. I've given up the idea of a deep relationship because it isn't practical and have been successful in purging this out of me. I still love this person. We definitely don't see eye to eye on why things got so bad. I have my perception and that is what this relationship lacked. I don't feel I was allowed to have my own feelings and be allowed to reason this. So here I am still needing to pray for her. Missing her. Not trusting her with all that though. I seems she even wants control of my prayers for her. God change us or change my circumstance be it my situation or thoughts. As for hers I give her to You.