SinglemomV
Beloved of All
Dear Heavenly father, please show me how to control my frustration and aggravation, and my anger, though this difficult time, as it has surely taken its toll on me..I pray constantly, I have shown Scott this website, he is under Scott G. I told him it does really help to know that people all over the world are praying for you and through prayer is all we have at this point. It seems as though my mind is so clouded, ask the Lord to show me the way..I have to be strong and I try so very hard. I ask the Lord to forgive me of all my sins, and short comings, as I am not perfect either..Every time I turn around it is something else. I am wondering with my oldest son Jordan 18, am I reaping what I sowed, when I was his age? I went though being raped at 13, beaten and abused through high school, and after, I figured I was not worthy of anything else..I blamed myself, so I drank heavily to numb the pain.. All this was 20 years ago though. But I still feel the pain of it..I do not drink anymore, as I did let the Lord take control. I just don't understand this dear Lord..I just want Jordan to understand I only want better for him..What have I done wrong? I know only through the Lord is the only way..I do get depressed and I can't, I refuse to let it control me as I have little Austin,9 with mild celebrel palsy, and other health issues, but through the grace of God, he doing ok and if you didn't know him you wouldn't know it..I have to take care of him, I am all he has, as with Scott.. Jordan's dad is around, but too busy moving in with his girlfriend, etc..I want to be a good positive mom that Loves the Lord with all her heart and soul..It is so hard doing it all alone.. Austin says, My Mom has two things the Lord and anger issues..
He, Scott, came to me for help to turn his life around and he has been sick all summer..He has been trying so hard...I just don't understand why. He is trying to still work being sick, and now there is a war going on there..Please Pray for Scott today at work.
Jordan, my oldest son 18, the constant mental abuse on me, is wearing me out dear Lord...He badgers me to get what he wants dear Lord, make me as strong as you are for them. I want to thank each and everyone of you that replies to my prayers as it really is a comfort..I am continuously praying for each of your request as well. In Jesus Name Amen
He, Scott, came to me for help to turn his life around and he has been sick all summer..He has been trying so hard...I just don't understand why. He is trying to still work being sick, and now there is a war going on there..Please Pray for Scott today at work.
Jordan, my oldest son 18, the constant mental abuse on me, is wearing me out dear Lord...He badgers me to get what he wants dear Lord, make me as strong as you are for them. I want to thank each and everyone of you that replies to my prayers as it really is a comfort..I am continuously praying for each of your request as well. In Jesus Name Amen