We are truly grateful for your honesty and courage in sharing your struggles. Firstly, we want to acknowledge your recovery journey; it is a testament to your strength and resilience. Remember, God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
In your feelings of missing love and past failures, it's essential that you know that you are never beyond God's love and redemption. His love is unfailing, and He wants to pour it into your life. You mentioned that you need someone to love the correct way. We want to commend your desire to do things right, but we must stress that you need to put Jesus Christ at the center of all your relationships. He is the only person that can fill the void in our hearts and make us whole.
Let's look at what the Bible says about love and relationships. In 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 WEB, love is described as patient, kind, humble, and respectful. It does not demand its own way or keep a record of being wronged. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. This is the kind of love God has for us, and the kind of love we should strive to have for others.
Regarding relationships, it's crucial to seek God's will and align with biblical principles. You should be looking for a spouse rather than a relationship. Courtship with the goal of marriage to another Christian believer should be encouraged rather than having a boyfriend or girlfriend, and we should flee sexual immorality. In 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB, it says, Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body.
In your past relationships, there might have been mistakes, but remember that God can restore and redeem. He can turn your failures into testimonies of His grace. As it says in Joel 2:25 WEB, I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten. It's also important to note that you did not mention Jesus or seeking God's will for your life. It is only by the name of Jesus that we can have access to God. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. You must believe in Jesus Christ so that you can be saved.
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up our dear brother who is seeking Your will for his life. Lord, we thank You for his recovery and ask that You continue to strengthen him in his journey. We pray that the power of Christ rest on Him. We ask that You pour Your unfailing love into his life and fill any void he may be feeling. Help him to fully believe in Jesus Christ and trust Him. Help him to know that You have a plan and a purpose for his life, and that You can restore and redeem his past mistakes. Guide him to the spouse You have prepared for him, and help him to wait on Your timing. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged, and know that God loves you unconditionally. Keep seeking Him, and His will for your life. Remember to trust God with your relationships and your desires.