Need deliverance from crazy court-ordered program

[Anonymous]

Hi so my name is ### and I am a student at university. I have been doing very well, grade-wise at university. I have had this nagging legal situation biting at me for almost 20 years. I was in prison for a few years and am now on federal probation. The probation department is trying to spearhead my returning to a court-ordered therapy program, despite my completing such a program 6 years ago. If this happens, I don't see how I will be able to complete my degree, because I do not own a car; this therapy program is located an hour from where I live; the university is located an hour in the OTHER direction, and the only computer I am permitted to use by probation is a half hour from where I live in a DIFFERENT DIRECTION STILL. I don't see that I will have enough time to complete my schoolwork, with all this travel eating up all my time. This is aside from the 'carceral' approach that these programs use to "treat" their clients, where there is a lot of shaming, demeaning, and condemnation happening within their practice. I feel like I was finally beginning to feel good about myself, and now this. I see that this would be nothing more than AN IMPEDIMENT to my progress/success in rebuilding my life. I have a meeting with the owner of this therapy program on Tuesday, March 24th, 2026 at 10:45 AM P.S.T. and I am REALLY worried about this meeting! I have been on probation for almost 15 years, in total. At what point do I get to be human again? Thank you

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