I got really high tonight. I have had a terrible day. There was a big massacre in Nigeria and it was of Catholic Christians. I know Catholicism is really wrong and I'm pretty sure most Catholics go to hell for following the Pope, the false prophet, who is busy trying to unite all the world religions and trying to force people to take this evil fake vaccine for corona, saying we have a moral duty to take it for the good of society. For Mary worship and idolatry and praying to dead saints. So many persecuted Christians are Catholics I can't bear to think about it, why doesn't He reveal to them that it's a wrong religion, I can't bear to think that all their suffering and trauma is just wasted and they don't get their heavenly reward of "blessed are those who are persecuted for my sake, for great is their reward in heaven."
I have also really been fretting again about whether we are meant to keep the law or not. All the Christian music I love is so spiritual and it really seems to bring me closer to Messiah but as far as I know none of them keep Torah. And as far as I know none of the persecuted keep Torah. Yet the people who do keep Torah, which I agree Messiah said we should, are saying that those who don't keep it are going to hell. I can't bear to think about it and it's making me hate God all over again.
I had Bible study with my favorite teacher. We are learning about communion, how important the blood is, and the seven places He bled from and the deep significance of every suffering, it's a beautiful teaching but this evening I fell asleep. Lucky I had the camera turned off because I was smoking. I took valium and kalms and extra opiate pain killers and was so out of my head it felt just like when I used to do heroin but I hated it instead of loving it. I just can't bear to think about Torah. The people who keep it, except for a very few, seem to not have the Holy Spirit and many musicians and other preachers who I like, including those who have been called supernaturally by God and have rapture dreams and visions and are Spirit-led, do not keep Torah. It is so confusing and God is said not to be the author of confusion but I have read the Bible several times and I can't make sense of it. These are the main verses where I think Jesus is saying we have to keep it -
Messiah Yahshua told us to keep the Mosaic Laws. I know they cannot save us that salvation is by grace through faith and not works so no man should boast. Like Apostle Paul said Galatians 2:21 - I do not frustrate the Grace of Elohim. For if righteousness comes by the law, then Christ is dead in vain, but he also said he delights in the law after the inner man. But Messiah definitely said these two things. Matthew 5:17 - Think not that I AM come to destroy the law, or the Prophets. I AM not come to destroy, but to fulfill. 5:18 - For verily I say unto you - Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. And also - Matthew 23:2 - Yahshua said - The scribes and the Pharisees sit in Moses' seat. Matthew 23:3 - All therefore the bid you observe, that observe and do, but do not ye after their works for they say, and do not. One more scripture about when Yahshua returns what He will say to those who did not try to keep Torah. It is the death penalty of the law that is nailed to the cross not the actual law as far as I currently understand. Luke 13:27 - But He shall say, I tell you, I know you not whence ye are, depart from me all ye workers of iniquity. Some translations say workers of lawlessness.
Because Yahshua made Himself known to me the second time during the appointed times the holy days and holiday of Chanukah I feel I am called to keep Torah but it is so confusing. I was so totally out of it tonight I couldn't even roll a smoke or make a coffee I just kept gouching out like a smack head evil junkie I feel like I nearly overdosed. Sorry for such a negative reply I just really feel the need to share this heavy burden with someone.
I have also really been fretting again about whether we are meant to keep the law or not. All the Christian music I love is so spiritual and it really seems to bring me closer to Messiah but as far as I know none of them keep Torah. And as far as I know none of the persecuted keep Torah. Yet the people who do keep Torah, which I agree Messiah said we should, are saying that those who don't keep it are going to hell. I can't bear to think about it and it's making me hate God all over again.
I had Bible study with my favorite teacher. We are learning about communion, how important the blood is, and the seven places He bled from and the deep significance of every suffering, it's a beautiful teaching but this evening I fell asleep. Lucky I had the camera turned off because I was smoking. I took valium and kalms and extra opiate pain killers and was so out of my head it felt just like when I used to do heroin but I hated it instead of loving it. I just can't bear to think about Torah. The people who keep it, except for a very few, seem to not have the Holy Spirit and many musicians and other preachers who I like, including those who have been called supernaturally by God and have rapture dreams and visions and are Spirit-led, do not keep Torah. It is so confusing and God is said not to be the author of confusion but I have read the Bible several times and I can't make sense of it. These are the main verses where I think Jesus is saying we have to keep it -
Messiah Yahshua told us to keep the Mosaic Laws. I know they cannot save us that salvation is by grace through faith and not works so no man should boast. Like Apostle Paul said Galatians 2:21 - I do not frustrate the Grace of Elohim. For if righteousness comes by the law, then Christ is dead in vain, but he also said he delights in the law after the inner man. But Messiah definitely said these two things. Matthew 5:17 - Think not that I AM come to destroy the law, or the Prophets. I AM not come to destroy, but to fulfill. 5:18 - For verily I say unto you - Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled. And also - Matthew 23:2 - Yahshua said - The scribes and the Pharisees sit in Moses' seat. Matthew 23:3 - All therefore the bid you observe, that observe and do, but do not ye after their works for they say, and do not. One more scripture about when Yahshua returns what He will say to those who did not try to keep Torah. It is the death penalty of the law that is nailed to the cross not the actual law as far as I currently understand. Luke 13:27 - But He shall say, I tell you, I know you not whence ye are, depart from me all ye workers of iniquity. Some translations say workers of lawlessness.
Because Yahshua made Himself known to me the second time during the appointed times the holy days and holiday of Chanukah I feel I am called to keep Torah but it is so confusing. I was so totally out of it tonight I couldn't even roll a smoke or make a coffee I just kept gouching out like a smack head evil junkie I feel like I nearly overdosed. Sorry for such a negative reply I just really feel the need to share this heavy burden with someone.
