We hear your heart, brother, and we stand with you before the throne of grace, lifting your burdens, dreams, and struggles to the Lord. You are not forgotten, your labor, your loneliness, and your longing for purpose have not gone unnoticed by the One who sees every sparrow that falls and numbers the hairs on your head (Matthew 10:29-31). The Lord knows the weight of mistreatment you’ve endured, the exhaustion of toiling under the sun, and the frustration of doors that have closed again and again. But He also sees the fire in your spirit to glorify Him, and that is a holy desire.
First, we must address the name by which you prayed, in Jesus’ Name. There is power in that name, for "there is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12). It is only through Christ that we have access to the Father, and we rejoice that you have come to Him in faith. If you have not yet surrendered your life fully to Jesus as Lord, we encourage you to do so today. Confess your sins, repent, and receive the free gift of salvation (Romans 10:9-10). This is the foundation upon which all other blessings rest.
Now, regarding your request for a platform in Christian media: we believe the Lord has placed this desire in your heart for a reason. The body of Christ is made up of many members, each with unique gifts and callings (1 Corinthians 12:4-7). Your experience with AUDHD, though challenging, may be part of how God equips you to minister to others who feel overlooked or "different." The world often dismisses those who don’t fit its mold, but God delights in using the weak to shame the strong (1 Corinthians 1:27). Your story could be a testament to His strength perfected in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).
However, we must gently rebuke the spirit of impatience and frustration that may be creeping in. You said, "I want it to do it for respect what I have been waiting for." The world measures worth by platforms, applause, and achievement, but God measures it by faithfulness (Matthew 25:21). If your desire for a media spot is rooted in a longing for validation from others, we must surrender that to the Lord. True respect comes from walking in humility and obedience to Christ, not from a TV screen. "For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? For if I were still pleasing men, I wouldn’t be a servant of Christ" (Galatians 1:10).
That said, we do not dismiss your calling. If God has placed media ministry on your heart, we should pursue it His way, with prayer, wisdom, and godly counsel. Have you sought opportunities to serve in smaller capacities first, such as volunteering with local Christian media, writing, or speaking at your church? Sometimes the Lord builds our platform one step at a time, testing our faithfulness in little things before entrusting us with much (Luke 16:10). We also encourage you to connect with other believers who can mentor you or open doors. "Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another" (Proverbs 27:17).
Your mention of nearly dying in your previous work is deeply concerning. No job is worth your life, and we pray the Lord would protect you from exploitation and guide you to safe, sustainable work while you pursue this calling. "The Lord is your keeper. The Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night" (Psalm 121:5-6). If you are in an unsafe environment, we urge you to seek help and trust God to provide a way out.
We also want to address the loneliness you carry. The Lord never intended for us to walk this journey alone. "It is not good for the man to be alone" (Genesis 2:18). Have you sought fellowship in a local church? Even if you feel different or struggle to connect, the body of Christ is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2). You may find that your experiences with AUDHD and hardship equip you to minister to others in ways you haven’t imagined. Do not isolate yourself, reach out, even if it’s difficult.
Now, let us pray:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother, lifting his heart, his dreams, and his pain to You. Lord, You see the years of toil, the closed doors, and the loneliness he has endured. You know the desire You’ve placed in him to glorify You through media ministry, and we ask that You would open the right doors in Your perfect timing. Father, if this is Your will for him, make the path clear. If there are steps he needs to take first, humility, preparation, or service, reveal them to him. Guard his heart from discouragement and the lie that his worth is tied to a platform. Remind him daily that he is Your beloved son, created for a purpose (Ephesians 2:10).
Lord, we ask for protection over his physical and mental health. Shield him from exploitation, provide safe work, and surround him with godly community. Heal the wounds of mistreatment and fill the empty places with Your presence. Father, if there is any sin in his life, bitterness, impatience, or pride, convict him gently and lead him to repentance. We declare that no weapon formed against him will prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that You will complete the good work You’ve begun in him (Philippians 1:6).
We pray for favor in the right circles, believers who will see his potential and help him grow. Give him wisdom to discern opportunities that align with Your will and courage to walk away from those that don’t. Most of all, draw him closer to You, that he may find his joy and identity in Christ alone. We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the One who makes all things possible. Amen.
Brother, do not grow weary in doing good, for in due season you will reap if you faint not (Galatians 6:9). The Lord is not slow concerning His promises, He is working even when you cannot see it. Keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). If you need practical steps, consider reaching out to Christian media organizations, sharing your testimony with your church, or even starting a blog or social media page to practice communicating your message. God often uses the small beginnings to prepare us for greater things.
You are not alone. We stand with you, and more importantly, the Lord stands with you. Press on.