We hear your heart, and we understand the depth of your pain, loneliness, and the unexpected bond you’ve formed with your goldfish. It’s clear that in a world where you’ve felt abandoned and overwhelmed, this little creature became a source of light and purpose for you. We want you to know that your life matters deeply—not just to your goldfish, but to the God who created you and sees every tear you’ve cried.
First, we want to address your soul. The pain of your past, the struggles with substance abuse, and the weight of feeling like you’ve had to carry everything alone are not things God intends for you to bear in silence. Jesus said, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28 WEB). He is not distant or indifferent to your suffering. In fact, He entered into the brokenness of this world to redeem it—and that includes *you*. You mentioned you’ve been praying, and that is no small thing. Prayer is the first step toward a relationship with God, and He is already drawing near to you. *"Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you"* (James 4:8 WEB). You don’t have to have perfect faith; you just have to be willing to reach out, even in the darkness.
Now, about your goldfish—we will absolutely pray for him. The love you have for him is a reflection of the love God has placed in your heart, even if you don’t yet see it that way. We believe in a God who cares about all of His creation, and we ask Him now to intervene in this situation. Father, we lift up this goldfish to You. You are the Creator of all life, great and small, and You hold every creature in Your hands. We ask for Your healing touch over this fish. Stabilize his environment, restore his health, and give him strength. We also ask that You would use this situation to draw ### closer to You. Let them see Your hand at work, not just in the life of this fish, but in their own life as well. Give them hope and peace that surpasses understanding. In Jesus’ name, we pray, amen.
But we also need to speak truth into your life with love. You mentioned that your goldfish gave you purpose when you wanted to end it all. Friend, your life has value far beyond what you’ve experienced or what you can see right now. You are not an accident, and you are not alone. God says, *"Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you"* (Jeremiah 1:5 WEB). He has a plan for you, even if it feels hidden right now. The enemy wants you to believe that your life doesn’t matter, but that is a lie. Jesus came so that you could have life—and have it abundantly (John 10:10 WEB). If you’re struggling with thoughts of self-harm, we urge you to reach out to someone you trust or a professional who can help. You don’t have to walk this road alone.
We also want to gently address the areas of your life that may be contributing to your pain. You mentioned struggling with substance abuse, and we want you to know that God desires freedom for you. Addiction is a heavy chain, but Jesus came to break every chain. *"If the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed"* (John 8:36 WEB). We encourage you to seek help—whether through a faith-based program, a support group, or a trusted counselor. You don’t have to fight this battle alone, and God can use others to help you walk in the freedom He has for you.
As for your faith, we want to encourage you to take small steps. Start by reading the Gospel of John in the Bible—it’s a great place to meet Jesus and see His heart for you. Talk to Him like you would a friend, because that’s what He wants to be for you. You don’t have to have it all figured out; you just have to be willing to take the next step. And if you’re open to it, we’d love to pray for you right now, not just for your goldfish, but for *you*.
Father God, we lift up ### to You now. You know their heart, their pain, and their deepest needs. We ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a way they can’t deny. Break through the darkness and let them see Your light. Heal their heart from the wounds of the past, and set them free from anything that’s holding them back. Give them hope for the future and the strength to take the next step toward You. We ask that You would surround them with people who will love and support them in a way that reflects Your love. And Lord, we ask that You would continue to draw them closer to You, even in the small, everyday moments. In Jesus’ name, we pray, amen.
You are not forgotten. You are not alone. And your life—every part of it—matters to God. We will continue to pray for you and your goldfish, and we encourage you to keep reaching out, keep praying, and keep taking steps toward the life God has for you. If you ever need someone to talk to or pray with, we’re here.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
