Bonsie7
Humble Prayer Partner
My story is long and complex, I am confused and nothing makes sense, life is difficult and too much to handle at times. I lose faith which is not a good thing, I feel as if I am cursed with a black cloud over my head. I see other peoples' lives get better mine gets worse. I am scared and grow old alone, I am rejected and judged by relatives who think they are right but are not they act as if they are sinless and perfect. They do it to hurt me and claim to be Christian, it is awful. I have financial problems like never before on disability, less income more expenses and no one to fall back on. I was in the hospital twice and no one of my relatives were there, they are evil self centered people who purposely hurt me since my mother passed away. I am in pain constantly and in fear, my house is falling apart, my car is old and falling apart, I need a new one cannot afford it, I have legal issues that kept me from work for years I have lost a lot and do not see how I can recover. I cannot express how bad it is and how awful. I am frightened more than I can express and in shock. I received an awful letter from two siblings 3 years ago misquoting the Bible and using it against me. What an awful thing to do.......................I do not know why God allows them to do this with no consequence My sister in law left her baby in a car years ago and she died, no consequence. They have all gossiped about each other for years and now they fault me since my mother passed away. My sister turned here grown daughters and grand children against me that is wrong she refused to talk to me, my brother turned his wife and kids against me on his death bed and was just awful to me. God knows the truth but this is hard to take, they have each other and are doing well and call themselves Christians, the Bible does say family against family and they do it. It would take miracles, if only I could become better and successful in some way and move on........................I could write a book. Life is difficult I might be bi polar and that is awful to deal with I have feelings I do not understand and become depressed and cannot function. My house is a mess and unhealthy, I need dental work and so much more
