Tethbraxruk
Disciple of Prayer
Today I visited my dad in the hospital after his seizure last night. I prayed all night last night for a miracle that maybe the seizure was the cancer leaving his body as I prayed so desperately for. And I actually fell asleep listening to a mass online, it just played through multiple prerecorded masses all night in a playlist. I actually woke up at the end of one of the masses and as I woke up I said “thanks be to God.” I really was so faithful and at peace believing everything will be okay and my dad would be better by the time we got to the hospital again. But now that I’ve been at the hospital my faith is just broken and my prayers just feel empty. My dad’s condition has worsened he can’t even find the strength to drink water right now. He has been sleeping all day he’s exhausted. He hasn’t been as lucid and responding as he normally did. I just feel so broken because I truly did believe I saw signs from God and Jesus that they would heal my dad and I prayed so much and believed so hard. Now I’m just at a complete loss. Please pray for my dad. Please pray for me and my family.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.