My One And Only True Love.

[ILoveeGodd46]

Hello, I'm ###. If you are reading this I assure you to keep on. I need some help and advice. I am a ### year old girl who lives in ###, ### turning ### on ###. I started dating a guy named ### known as ###. We started on ### and it had ended on ### by me. This is what had happened. I have some problems with my temper and I can't seem to control it..I feel as if I am bipolar because I gt stressed out real easily and cry, scream, and jump/stomp on the ground. ### and I were playing a video game together online and he just left. Later about ### seconds later he had send me a message that said f off. I replied and said what's wrong? He then said," f off don't talk to me anymore." as I read that so many things were going through my mind, so many questions,"does he not want me anymore"? "is he breaking up with me"? "did I do something to upset him"? You see ### likes to joke around with me sometimes but it's not constant. And when he does I don't know if he is serious or joking. So I always think he is serious. I told him politely,"###? Can you please tell me what's wrong I'm going to gt mad because I did nothing wrong and I don't know why you are talking to me like this." he said "i don't care" I went crazy and wrote him a long message explaining that I did nothing wrong and all I do is love him and give him my heart. Then.. Thus is when the biggest mistake of my life happened when I had said those 4 words.." I'm done with you" I had said that out of frustration and anger and hurt. I have no idea like honestly I have no Idea why I would say that. I feel so dumb and pathetic. We were so madly in love. We wanted to get

Married and be together forever. I live him oh so much he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. And he would tells how much he cared for me and loved me so many times and that made me happy. He Is the reason why I smile and why Iaugh and am so happy and energetic. But it was my mistake that I had left him. I didn't mean to I say things I don't even realize I says until I calm down and get back to normal relieved from stress. But I asked for him back a multiple amount of times and each time he would say no, no, no, and more no's. I need a yes. I need a yes I'm sorry I love you. But I don't understand why he wont take me back if he says he loves me so much. He told me that I threw him away as if he were trash. He said that he thought I was like any other girls and that I was different. He said that he thought I would never hurt him but I did t mean to. Honest to the bottom of my heart I didn't mean to let him go. He said that I hurt his heart. I cried and haven't talked to him for ### days now. I need him in my life. I dislike when people say oh you'll find someone better get over it, when no! I'm not going to get over it Im in love with ### and I know he is in love with me too I know that he can't just not talk to me again. We are meant for each other and we deserve each other. I just want another chance with him. I need another chance to be happy again. I Need him. I need m heart healed. But I regret those 4 words I had said to him. He is in ###, ### just about ### minutes away from where I live. I want to go to where he lives and actually talk to him In person. Should I? Do you think he will love me and want to be with me now that we can see each other? Should I go? I have nothing where I'm at now. Just me and mother. But she's fine with the idea of us moving there. I stopped praying and I finally prayed to god to heal my pain and to help me out with the situation i am in now. I feel that I have a strong connection with him now. I made a promise to myself that I wasn't going to let ### go and I never will. He loves me by he's tired of getting hurt over and over again by different people. I need him and he needs me. We should be together. But I'm stuck and I start to lose faith in myself. And then I get depressed and give up on myself but I will never give up on ###. Never... Please help me god. Please.

 

[russell]

maybe ### just does not understand the situation. Maybe if you send ### a message asking if you can talk. Then go from there. I'LL pray for you and ### that the two of you can reach a good understanding. The key is to communicate......

 

[deedee15116]

You are so very young to have such a serious relationship! ### does not seem like a gentleman to me because a good man, a Christian man would never tell the one he loves to F off. I pray that you find happiness, love and contentment with Jesus Christ, our Savior. I also pray that the Lord will give you strength to see ###'s faults so that you can move on with your life. One day you will meet that man that God has chosen for your husband and that man will treat you like a lady, with respect, unconditional love, and honor. May God be with you on your walk through your teenage years.