RACopeland
Disciple of Prayer
My Name is Raymond C. I’m a struggling Pastor. Prior to becoming a Pastor of a small disorganized and mismanaged church, I was a contractor & prospered greatly. Since heeding the call & surrendering a prosperous and luxurious International Contracting career I’ve been struggling as money sipped out like a tire going flat for 3yrs now! The Church has struggled unbelievably as older Saints refused to move into 21st century. This of course resulted in low membership, waning faithful attendances, & very low giving culminating in low to no compensation for laity. But, I stayed anyways believing this is where GOD put me, & that He would work it out & change the circumstances. That didn’t happen, things only got worst! Now I’m @ the Point that all my saving is depleted save $239.00. With bills averaging 1900+ a mth I’ve resorted to selling my belongings, & now looking @ depleting my children’s savings, & selling remainder of my belongings; which I can only hope will cover mth coming. Yes, I’ve done the practical & the spiritual. I’ve applied to more jobs than I can remember, I’ve graciously received charity from friend & family that could help, I’ve held the faith, prayed, fasted, cried, been thrifty, gave, tithed, spoke words of life, I’ve bind something’s, loosed something’s, rebuked something’s, and touched and agreed. I’ve done all I know to do! Frankly @ this point I’m out of fuel & courage; faith is running dangerously low, and my mind is about to take me to a dark place. I have a wife, & 5 children who depend on me & I am letting them & myself down horribly. I don’t care to see my family homeless, & I am tired of my wife going without, but if something doesn’t change NOW, the future is not looking to promising. As a man I am ANGRY, feed up, & ready to do whatever it takes! Please pray for me & my situation. Next month is it!!!
