Woubshet Mesfin
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Micah.
I was a homosexual. As a Christian, I still struggle with the sin of homosexuality and same-sex attraction. I only became a Christian about two years ago and since then my father has essentially banned me from going to church (I'm 17) because he believed that I was "brainwashed", this means that I have virtually no support system of Christians who can pray for me and I for them and whom I can lean on and commune with for living the faith on a daily basis. I refuse to call myself a homosexual because my identity is not rooted in sex or a career or a position I have on this earth, but my identity is in Christ Jesus and His name is written on my forehead (Jn 1:12;Acts 1:8;Galatians 2:20). I am His slave and that will never change. Despite knowing my identity in Christ, as a son of the Father, I keep going back to my sin when attractions come over me. I don't want to do it and I actively repent and despise this sin, but the sin in me is causing me to act upon my fleshly desires, just as Paul said in Romans 7:15: "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do, but what I hate, I do.". It's just hard to be honest. I was also sexually abused by an older male friend when I was 9 to 11 and it has left its mark by perverting my sexuality. I just need prayer because, to be frank, I will try and live for God and I desire to only honor Him but I catch a glimpse of a shirtless man in this sexually saturated American culture or I let my eyes trail on a guy I see in the hallways at school. I am actively committing adultery and it simply disgusts me. I just think how I can keep betraying and spitting on what Christ has done for me by letting myself be bound to the chains He died to set me free from. I know that even know God the Father has forgiven me an innumerable amount of times because He is a God of love and mercy and kindness that forgives all our sin on account of the death of His Son. Please just pray that I be empowered by the Spirit to walk by Him and not commit the desires of the flesh. Pray that in the times when I'm alone and in the dark and am tormented by the whispers of demons to commit sexual sin that I be reminded of the goodness and primacy of Christ over my life. I don't have a church so this is the next best thing. I praise God our Father for this website and may the Lord bless all of you, my brothers and sisters.
I was a homosexual. As a Christian, I still struggle with the sin of homosexuality and same-sex attraction. I only became a Christian about two years ago and since then my father has essentially banned me from going to church (I'm 17) because he believed that I was "brainwashed", this means that I have virtually no support system of Christians who can pray for me and I for them and whom I can lean on and commune with for living the faith on a daily basis. I refuse to call myself a homosexual because my identity is not rooted in sex or a career or a position I have on this earth, but my identity is in Christ Jesus and His name is written on my forehead (Jn 1:12;Acts 1:8;Galatians 2:20). I am His slave and that will never change. Despite knowing my identity in Christ, as a son of the Father, I keep going back to my sin when attractions come over me. I don't want to do it and I actively repent and despise this sin, but the sin in me is causing me to act upon my fleshly desires, just as Paul said in Romans 7:15: "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do, but what I hate, I do.". It's just hard to be honest. I was also sexually abused by an older male friend when I was 9 to 11 and it has left its mark by perverting my sexuality. I just need prayer because, to be frank, I will try and live for God and I desire to only honor Him but I catch a glimpse of a shirtless man in this sexually saturated American culture or I let my eyes trail on a guy I see in the hallways at school. I am actively committing adultery and it simply disgusts me. I just think how I can keep betraying and spitting on what Christ has done for me by letting myself be bound to the chains He died to set me free from. I know that even know God the Father has forgiven me an innumerable amount of times because He is a God of love and mercy and kindness that forgives all our sin on account of the death of His Son. Please just pray that I be empowered by the Spirit to walk by Him and not commit the desires of the flesh. Pray that in the times when I'm alone and in the dark and am tormented by the whispers of demons to commit sexual sin that I be reminded of the goodness and primacy of Christ over my life. I don't have a church so this is the next best thing. I praise God our Father for this website and may the Lord bless all of you, my brothers and sisters.
