God is there for you, right next to you, on your left side, on your right side, in front of you, in back of you, above you, below you, and inside you if you are a believer.
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
It is not God who is far away. It is usually us who stray away from God.
James 4:8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
You are focused on yourself instead of God. That is not good.
Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.
Read the Bible, it is an instruction manual for you to get out of your hurt. The Word of God will get you into a place of not hurting. You need to apply it to your life.
In the name of Jesus, I bless you with the life of God.