We hear your anguish, dear one, and we grieve with you. The pain you carry is deep, and the wounds inflicted upon you were not just physical—they struck at the very core of your identity, your worth, and your understanding of God’s love. Let us first say this with absolute clarity: **what happened to you was not your fault.** The men who abused you bear the full weight of their sin, and their actions were evil, plain and simple. The Lord sees their wickedness, and He will judge them justly. But more than that, He sees *you*—your tears, your rage, your shattered trust—and He longs to gather you into His arms, even now.
You ask how this could be God’s will, and we must answer honestly: **It was not.** The world is broken by sin, and in that brokenness, evil men do evil things. God did not ordain your suffering, but He permits free will—even the free will of those who choose to harm others. Yet this does not mean He abandoned you. The psalmist cries out, *"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from helping me, and from the words of my groaning?"* (Psalm 22:1), and we echo those words with you. But we also remember that Jesus Himself uttered them on the cross, bearing the weight of all human suffering—including yours. He did not turn away from the darkness; He entered into it so that no pain, no shame, no violation would be beyond His redemption.
You say your purity and goodness are gone, that your soul is tainted. But Scripture tells us, *"Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow"* (Isaiah 1:18). This is not a promise of superficial cleansing, but of a profound, soul-deep restoration. The blood of Jesus does not merely cover sin—it *erases* it. Your worth is not defined by what was taken from you, but by what was freely given for you: the life of the Son of God. You are not "ruined" in His eyes; you are *beloved.* You are not "damaged goods"; you are a daughter (or son) of the King, and He is making all things new (Revelation 21:5).
Your mother’s words are cruel and false. Jesus said, *"Are not two sparrows sold for an assarion coin? Not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Therefore don’t be afraid. You are of more value than many sparrows"* (Matthew 10:29-31). You are *infinitely* valuable to Him—not because of what you have or haven’t done, but because He created you in His image and redeemed you at the highest price. Do not let the lies of others, or even the lies of your own heart, define you.
As for the spirits of lust, anger, sorrow, despair, and hopelessness that torment you—we rebuke them in the name of Jesus. These are not your inheritance; they are chains that the enemy would use to keep you bound. The apostle Paul declares, *"For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ"* (2 Corinthians 10:4-5). You are not powerless. In Christ, you have authority to resist these spirits, to break their hold, and to walk in the freedom He died to give you.
We also must address the forgiveness you’ve extended to your abusers. While forgiveness is a biblical command (Matthew 6:14-15), it does not mean you must trust them, reconcile with them, or pretend the abuse never happened. Forgiveness is for *your* healing, not their absolution. It is the act of releasing the debt they owe you into God’s hands, trusting Him to be the righteous Judge. But this does not erase the need for justice, nor does it require you to minimize your pain. Jesus wept over Jerusalem’s suffering (Luke 19:41), and He weeps with you now.
Let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious one who has endured unspeakable pain. Lord, You see the wounds—both the visible and the hidden—and You collect every tear in Your bottle (Psalm 56:8). We ask that You would pour out Your healing balm upon their soul. Where there is anger, replace it with Your perfect peace. Where there is despair, plant seeds of hope. Where there is shame, cover them with the robe of Your righteousness.
Jesus, You were despised and rejected, acquainted with grief (Isaiah 53:3). You know what it is to be betrayed, to be violated, to feel abandoned. We ask that You would draw near to this child of Yours, that they would feel Your presence in a tangible way. Break the chains of lust, anger, and hopelessness that seek to enslave them. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in the freedom and dignity You died to secure for them.
Father, we declare over them that they are not ruined, not tainted, not beyond repair. You are the God who makes all things new, who turns ashes into beauty (Isaiah 61:3). Restore to them the years the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). Give them the courage to face each day, knowing that You are their Defender and their Redeemer.
We pray for wisdom and discernment as they navigate relationships moving forward. Guard their heart from those who would seek to harm them, and surround them with godly community—people who will speak truth, offer grace, and reflect Your love. If they have not yet placed their trust in You as Savior, we ask that You would draw them to Yourself, that they would know the forgiveness and new life found only in Your Son.
Lord, we also pray for their mother. Soften her heart, convict her of her words, and lead her to repentance. Heal the brokenness in their relationship, if it is Your will, or give this one the strength to set boundaries where needed.
We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the Name above every name, the One who conquered sin and death so that we might live. Amen.
Beloved, you are not alone. The road to healing is long, and there will be days when the pain feels fresh all over again. But you do not walk it by yourself. The Lord goes before you, behind you, and beside you. He is making a way where there seems to be no way. Cling to Him, even when your faith feels small. His love for you is relentless, and His power to restore is greater than any damage done to you.
If you have not yet done so, we strongly encourage you to seek out a biblical counselor or a trusted pastor who can walk with you through this journey. There is no shame in asking for help—it is one of the bravest things you can do. You are worth fighting for, and we will continue to stand with you in prayer.
