Silas
Beloved of All
Your honesty in sharing so many deep desires is received with care and prayer. God sees you completely, nothing is hidden from Him, and He looks on you with compassion and sympathetic understanding of your weaknesses and needs. He cares about every part of your life, from your studies and work to your family, your home, and your health.
The greatest need any of us has is not first for a better job or more money or even physical healing, but for forgiveness of sins and a restored relationship with God. Jesus showed this when He forgave a man's sins before He healed his body, because the heart is the root and the body is often where symptoms appear. True change begins with repentance, a turning of the heart to follow Jesus fully. When Jesus called His first disciples they left their nets immediately to follow Him, choosing a wholehearted commitment to know Him and walk with Him. That same call is for you today, to trust Him not only for what He can give but for who He is, and to let Him be Lord of every area.
You spoke many times about speaking life and creating your own future. Scripture teaches that God alone is Creator and that life is found in Him. Our words do not create reality, but prayer does bring us to the One who does. He has not put Himself in a box. He left room in His own law for a miracle, showing that only He could cleanse a leper, and He still works when He desires to bring healing and provision. You can bring your course, your desire to do eyelashes with excellence, your hopes to encourage others and to find good work in the beauty industry, and even small details like what you need for your hair, to Him in humble prayer and trust His wise answer rather than demanding an outcome.
You also shared a longing for physical flexibility, for a renewed intimate life, and for your heart's desires in that area. God created intimacy as a good gift, and He placed it within the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman. Sex and living together belong inside that covenant. Outside of it, what feels like freedom actually brings deeper hurt. If marriage is your desire, that desire itself is good, and it is right to ask God to lead you to a faithful, godly husband if it is His will, and to help you walk in purity and self control while you wait. God honors that kind of trust and He can give strength for today and hope for the future.
You mentioned feeling sucked dry, used, with your energy taken, even feeling put into machines or vehicles against your will, and wanting your wholeness and color back. Jesus has authority that no other has. He rebuked unclean spirits and they had to come out, and He rebuked the wind and the sea saying peace, be still, and there was a great calm. He is the Son of God, and He is able to bring peace to a troubled mind and protection to a weary heart. Bring those fears to Him, ask Him to guard your mind and body, and to help you rest in His peace.
You also carry many good burdens for your mom, your three children, your pets, your communication together, your finances, debt, the need to move, and the hope to see your children married and joyful. God cares about families. He designed marriage so that two become one, a deep unity, and He also creates a deeper bond in the family of God through Jesus Christ. He invites you to feed your spiritual life as faithfully as you feed your body, through His Word, prayer, and fellowship with other believers, so that you grow strong inside.
There is only one provision God has made for sin, the blood of Jesus Christ shed on the cross. He bore the spiritual, emotional and physical pain of the cross to free us from the power of sin and to bring us from darkness into light. If you have not already, put your trust fully in Jesus alone for salvation, turn from sin, and follow Him.
I pray for you now that God would forgive your sins through Jesus alone, cleanse your heart, and fill you with His peace. I pray He would help you finish your course with diligence, give you skill and integrity in your work, provide for your daily needs and deliver you from the weight of debt and lack according to His wisdom, heal and strengthen communication in your family, watch over your children and pets, and guard your mind and body from fear and oppression. I pray He would lead you in purity, and if it is His will, provide a godly marriage in His time, and help you and your family walk closely with Him all your days, alive and whole in Christ.
The greatest need any of us has is not first for a better job or more money or even physical healing, but for forgiveness of sins and a restored relationship with God. Jesus showed this when He forgave a man's sins before He healed his body, because the heart is the root and the body is often where symptoms appear. True change begins with repentance, a turning of the heart to follow Jesus fully. When Jesus called His first disciples they left their nets immediately to follow Him, choosing a wholehearted commitment to know Him and walk with Him. That same call is for you today, to trust Him not only for what He can give but for who He is, and to let Him be Lord of every area.
You spoke many times about speaking life and creating your own future. Scripture teaches that God alone is Creator and that life is found in Him. Our words do not create reality, but prayer does bring us to the One who does. He has not put Himself in a box. He left room in His own law for a miracle, showing that only He could cleanse a leper, and He still works when He desires to bring healing and provision. You can bring your course, your desire to do eyelashes with excellence, your hopes to encourage others and to find good work in the beauty industry, and even small details like what you need for your hair, to Him in humble prayer and trust His wise answer rather than demanding an outcome.
You also shared a longing for physical flexibility, for a renewed intimate life, and for your heart's desires in that area. God created intimacy as a good gift, and He placed it within the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman. Sex and living together belong inside that covenant. Outside of it, what feels like freedom actually brings deeper hurt. If marriage is your desire, that desire itself is good, and it is right to ask God to lead you to a faithful, godly husband if it is His will, and to help you walk in purity and self control while you wait. God honors that kind of trust and He can give strength for today and hope for the future.
You mentioned feeling sucked dry, used, with your energy taken, even feeling put into machines or vehicles against your will, and wanting your wholeness and color back. Jesus has authority that no other has. He rebuked unclean spirits and they had to come out, and He rebuked the wind and the sea saying peace, be still, and there was a great calm. He is the Son of God, and He is able to bring peace to a troubled mind and protection to a weary heart. Bring those fears to Him, ask Him to guard your mind and body, and to help you rest in His peace.
You also carry many good burdens for your mom, your three children, your pets, your communication together, your finances, debt, the need to move, and the hope to see your children married and joyful. God cares about families. He designed marriage so that two become one, a deep unity, and He also creates a deeper bond in the family of God through Jesus Christ. He invites you to feed your spiritual life as faithfully as you feed your body, through His Word, prayer, and fellowship with other believers, so that you grow strong inside.
There is only one provision God has made for sin, the blood of Jesus Christ shed on the cross. He bore the spiritual, emotional and physical pain of the cross to free us from the power of sin and to bring us from darkness into light. If you have not already, put your trust fully in Jesus alone for salvation, turn from sin, and follow Him.
I pray for you now that God would forgive your sins through Jesus alone, cleanse your heart, and fill you with His peace. I pray He would help you finish your course with diligence, give you skill and integrity in your work, provide for your daily needs and deliver you from the weight of debt and lack according to His wisdom, heal and strengthen communication in your family, watch over your children and pets, and guard your mind and body from fear and oppression. I pray He would lead you in purity, and if it is His will, provide a godly marriage in His time, and help you and your family walk closely with Him all your days, alive and whole in Christ.
