Hairalia
Disciple of Prayer
My wife is sick with pancreas cancer and diabetes and clot on her spleen among other problems but we've been together for 30 years we've had our ups and downs and I've been that real jerk med treated her but my love for her is 1000% true and she just came out the hospital and the same day she came home she walked out on me and before her been in the hospital she told me she loved me everyday but when she left I didn't hear or see her for about 3 or 4 days and the day I saw her all she said was she hated me she wished I'd die and so many other hurtful things and it's been almost 3 weeks since she's been gone and she won't talk to me or let me see her but now a couple of her friends have told me that she told them that she was doing this so she could see me move on but because of the things I have done to her and as many times as I've stood by her through sickness and hospital stays and the few times we did separate she always came back but this time there's just something inside saying she's not going to make it back this time and I'm feeling like the days she might have whether it's 1 or a 100 this is the time I need most with her and God knows I've been praying and crying my heart out for God to bring her to just let her walk in the door right now and hold me and say it'll be ok and she does forgive me for the things I done it really need this without this I want never move on I am ready to just give up right now but I'm just asking if ok or God's mercy one more time and bring her through my door tonight or as fast as he can do I can have as much time as he gives us whether it's 30 minutes or whenever as long as when her time comes she's in my arms like we promised each other thank you for your prayers if y'all don't mind I'm asking because I feel like as much as it's been praying and just as I feel like God's doing something I get brought right back down and maybe God will answer y'all prayer or at least tell y'all why he ain't answering mine. Thank you my name is ### ### my wife's name is ### ###