anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
My husband's check is in the bank and it doesn't make me happy because there isn't enough to take care of the bills, buy groceries, purchase his medication, pay our taxes. Once again God has chosen not to grant any of my prayer request. Onw I have been praying for 16 years, one for 11 years, another for 9 years, our current situation since last fall. No relief, only NO from God, you don't deserve relief or happiness. So why do I keep praying and asking others to pray. What happenened to the power of prayer. Evil people get what they prsy for. I'm not asking to be the queen of England. I am having a nervous break down and God just doesn't care so why should I care if I live. Yet God won't let me die or help me fix the situation. I don't know what to do. I just want to blow my brains out so I can be put out of this miserable life. Turn to God so he can laugh in my face. My anniversary is Saturday and I don't care. Once again there is no money for even a card. I thanked God for all the miserable crap that's happened and still happening. I thanked him I have a roof over my head until I don't pay the taxes on Friday and my husband's wages are garnished. I have run out of faith and belief that Gid even cares.
Take me out of this miserable life. Kill me, make me a widow, I don't care, I just won't go through a divorce again. I hate life. I don't want to be in it anymore.
Take me out of this miserable life. Kill me, make me a widow, I don't care, I just won't go through a divorce again. I hate life. I don't want to be in it anymore.
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