Anonymous
Beloved of All
My grief is so deep right now, that all I can think of is finding peace when my life is over. I will not harm myself, but I cannot see finding peace in life. I have been heartbroken so many times. I am almost ###, single and childless. Every time that I think that I have found love, the person leaves or it is not to be. The pain is horrible. Every loss becomes a deeper and deeper wound. I struggle every moment, and when I finally find hope, it quickly vanishes and is taken away from me. I recently met someone that I really thought I 'clicked' with, and the story is once again the same. It does not seem meant to be. I don't know what to do anymore. I do not want to keep living alone, in desperation. Every loss brings me deeper pain and more desperation. I want to love and be loved so badly. I want to share my life with someone that understands me, and whom I understand and feel genuine love for. I am so alone. The aching in my heart is something horrible. I don't know what else to do....
