Learning2smile
Disciple of Prayer
It's been such a long time since I've prayed. Years ago, maybe a little after high school. A few years ago, I almost literally fell in love at first sight. In over 3 years, we have not gone one single day without seeing each other. He's my best friend, and he's hurting so much right now. We've both struggled with addiction since before we even met, we're trying to get better, we both want to start a family so much. He's been hearing voices, its gotten worse in the past few months. Its not schizophrenia, I think its in part because of the drugs. I prayed earlier tonite for him, I was so scared he was going to hurt himself (I know and trust 100% he would never hurt me) He has such a good heart, yeah we've made some bad choices & mistakes, but we try to be good people.
Tonite I prayed for the voices to stop, to go away for good and for him to feel peace instead of the anxiety. I prayed that I could be strong enough for him, and that I would know the right thing to do and say, because Im so scared right now. I'm confused and worried and I would do anything to be able to fight this for him, because he deserves so much more. He's hurting, and I just want him to feel better, and to know that no matter what, I love him and I'm always going to be there for him.
Ive never been on a site like this before, I dont know if Im doing this right, or what exactly I should be saying or asking here. I just want the voices to stop, the paranoia to stop, I want him to be able to sleep at night, and I want us to be start our family. I just turned 30, and I know he would make such an amazing father, he has so much live inside him. So if you took the time to read this, can you please help us? My name is Erin, his is Jesse.
Tonite I prayed for the voices to stop, to go away for good and for him to feel peace instead of the anxiety. I prayed that I could be strong enough for him, and that I would know the right thing to do and say, because Im so scared right now. I'm confused and worried and I would do anything to be able to fight this for him, because he deserves so much more. He's hurting, and I just want him to feel better, and to know that no matter what, I love him and I'm always going to be there for him.
Ive never been on a site like this before, I dont know if Im doing this right, or what exactly I should be saying or asking here. I just want the voices to stop, the paranoia to stop, I want him to be able to sleep at night, and I want us to be start our family. I just turned 30, and I know he would make such an amazing father, he has so much live inside him. So if you took the time to read this, can you please help us? My name is Erin, his is Jesse.
