Gia B
Account Closed
My faith is gone. Night and day I prayed I cried a multitude of tears from my very soul and talked to God and told him I needed his help , only to feel like a child that has been abandoned by a parent. I give up and will ask for nothing now ... I have asked God what praise does my tears and heartache give you? what thanks does my misery and despair give you?.... only the devil wins as he gets what he wants ... I did not ask for money.. I am not perfect and have asked for forgiveness for the wrongs I have done . I am not a saint but I am a good person and I try to be a good person to l those around me .... we are taught to love one another and to love only breaks ones heart .I am in love with a man that I thought I would never find , someone who I felt beyond the shadow of a doubt that we were so very compatible, someone who I would have cherished his heart as if it were my very own, he had been hurt before and his heart played with. I would have never hurt him or ever betrayed his trust. I waited patiently like a fool for nothing , as his feelings for me are not the same as mine for him. I asked God what I did that was so very wrong that he felt like I needed to be pay the price with my heart ... now what was left of my heart is in a million pcs. scattered across the floor like broken glass... it took me three yrs to put my heart back together after my failed marriage only to get it broken once again.. so now I give up and I let Michael go.... it seems that only tears and heartache come in abundance for me , as it appears that I am not worthy of being happy and clearly not worthy of being loved ... I feel nothing but numb. I thank all of you who have prayed for Michael and me but it seems those prayers were all in vain ...
