We hear your heart’s cry, dear sister, and we stand with you before the throne of grace, lifting every burden to the Lord who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3). Your pain is real, your longing for a godly marriage is pure, and your desire to walk in God’s purpose is beautiful. But we must first address some things with truth and love, for the enemy seeks to distort what God intends for good.
First, we must rebuke the shame you carry. Shame is not from God—it is a tool of the enemy to keep you in bondage. The relationship you had, though painful, does not define you. What matters is that you repent of any sin that may have been part of it, receive God’s forgiveness, and walk forward in freedom. If there was sexual immorality in that relationship, we must call it what it is—fornication—and bring it before the Lord in repentance. Scripture is clear: *"Flee sexual immorality! ‘Every sin that a man does is outside the body,’ but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body"* (1 Corinthians 6:18). But do not let shame linger, for *"if we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"* (1 John 1:9). You are not defined by your past; you are defined by Christ’s redemption.
Your desire for a godly husband is good and right. Marriage is a sacred covenant, and we pray that God would bring you a man who loves Him first, who cherishes you as a whole person—body, soul, and spirit—and who will lead you in righteousness. But we must also caution you: do not idolize marriage or a foreign spouse. God’s timing is perfect, and His plan for you may look different than what you envision. Seek Him first, and He will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6). Guard your heart against bitterness or impatience, for *"hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when longing is fulfilled, it is a tree of life"* (Proverbs 13:12). Trust that God is preparing you for the husband He has for you, even as He prepares that man for you.
Your struggle with employment and provision is heavy, and we lift it before the Lord. It is not by accident that your phone failed or that opportunities seem blocked. The enemy would love to keep you in lack and discouragement, but God is your Provider. *"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want"* (Psalm 23:1). We rebuke any spirit of poverty, delay, or sabotage in Jesus’ name. But we also encourage you to seek wisdom in your job search. Not every opportunity is from God, even if it pays well. Ask Him to open doors that align with His purpose for you—work that allows you to serve others, grow in faith, and steward your gifts well. *"Commit your works to the Lord, and your plans will be established"* (Proverbs 16:3). And remember, your worth is not in your job or income; it is in Christ alone.
Your plan to fast for 40 days is a powerful step of faith, but we must caution you: fasting is not about manipulating God or earning His favor. It is about humbling yourself, seeking His face, and aligning your heart with His will. If you fast, do so with a spirit of repentance, worship, and dependence on Him—not as a way to force His hand. *"Yet even now," says the Lord, "return to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning"* (Joel 2:12). Let this time be one of drawing near to Him, not just seeking answers.
The trauma you carry from childhood, family, and past relationships is deep, and we grieve with you. Words wound, betrayal hurts, and rejection leaves scars. But Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted and set the captives free (Isaiah 61:1). We rebuke every lie the enemy has spoken over you—lies of worthlessness, abandonment, or unlovability. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and God has not forgotten you. Forgive those who have hurt you, not because they deserve it, but because Christ forgave you (Colossians 3:13). Let go of the bitterness, for it only poisons you. *"See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many"* (Hebrews 12:15).
And finally, we must address the name by which you pray. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6). If you have not surrendered your life to Him, we urge you to do so now. Repent of your sins, believe in His death and resurrection, and receive Him as your Lord and Savior. Only then can you truly walk in the freedom, provision, and purpose He has for you.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our sister, lifting every burden, every wound, and every longing to You. Lord, You see her heart—her desire for a godly marriage, her need for provision, her struggle with shame and trauma. We ask that You would heal her broken heart and bind up her wounds. Remove every lie the enemy has spoken over her, and replace it with Your truth. Help her to see herself as You see her—beloved, chosen, and redeemed.
Father, we repent on her behalf for any sin in her past relationship. Cleanse her from all unrighteousness and set her free from shame. We declare that she is forgiven, and we rebuke every spirit of condemnation in Jesus’ name. Lord, we ask that You would bring godly friendships and mentors into her life—people who will encourage her in the faith and speak life into her.
We pray for her employment, Lord. Open doors that no man can shut, and close doors that are not Your will. Provide for her needs according to Your riches in glory (Philippians 4:19). Give her wisdom in her job search, and lead her to work that aligns with Your purpose for her life. We rebuke every spirit of lack, delay, and sabotage, and we declare that she is not forgotten by You.
As she prepares to fast, Lord, we ask that You would meet her in that time. Draw her close to You, and let her hear Your voice clearly. Help her to fast with a right heart—one of humility, repentance, and surrender. Break every chain of trauma, bitterness, and unforgiveness, and fill her with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
Lord, we ask that You would prepare the man You have for her. Let him be a man after Your own heart, who will love her as Christ loves the Church. Guard her heart against impatience and idolatry, and help her to trust in Your perfect timing. And if she does not yet know You as her Savior, we pray that she would surrender her life to You today. Let her walk in the fullness of Your Spirit, bearing fruit in every area of her life.
We thank You, Father, for Your faithfulness. We trust that You are working all things together for her good (Romans 8:28), and we declare that her future is secure in You. In Jesus’ mighty name, we pray. Amen.
now I'm using my mom's I can't even attend my interview is there is any evil sprite. I want to do fasting tomorrow till 40 days I had bad childhood teenage even as adults life my family friends love all cut off hurt by words forgive Lord and I had so many trauma in family friends even in love I hope God change my life.*
