DmanDuke
Disciple of Prayer
My lord.
For everything you have granted me in my life I am so thankful for from the deepest part of my heart and I am so sorry that I have lost my faith over the years. I have become a Black hearted, poisoned, jealous, ungrateful person that has lost my faith, myself, the love of my life, my job, and dishonour to both ### and our families! I've never wanted to be like this my Lord! And it pains me so deeply I don't know how...........I will ever make it up to you. Now that I think back I've asked and asked off you all the time and never returned my faith except a thank you for looking over me, ###, and both our families and friends.
I feel as though Satan has gifted me with anguish, hatred, jealousy, and poisoned my heart full of blackness and sickness because I have lost my faith in you my Lord! I feel as though Satan has seen the void and filled it with his faith which is just pure blackness and evil.
My Lord I am at such a great loss! My love of my life and I have walked away from each other due to my insensitivity and evil that has projected from me. My love of my life has walked away in tears and dejected as she tried to help me and I threw it in her face every time and now I'm killing inside as I love her so much and I am so sorry, I'm finding it hard to sleep at night. I tried to help myself and stop this evil that kept coming out of me before it was too late but it was like I had no control over my actions and I was hurting my love of my life! ###, every time! The things I've said to her, the uncaring selfish attitude towards her, and the horrible things I've done in her presence like having no respect for her, my Lord she has so much passion, kindness, sensitivity, and caring like I never seen anybody have except my parents, ### has a huge heart of gold I just don't know what I have become and I am so depressed and sick with guilt and despair I just have no idea what horrible monster I have become and I am so ashamed of myself it's all I can do to live another day.
If I was to have another chance with ### my Lord I would be very different, with your guidance and love I know I could be her everything again but I just don't know how to ask and or whether I should.
With your help and guidance my Lord I would love her, care for her, trust her, have an abundance of time for her, teach her, respect her, and nurture her soul back to a loving girl again that she was when I first met her. I am so frustrated at my insensitivity and why I didn't try harder when it would have mattered most.
My Lord ### is everything to me and my whole world and I want her back in my life as I am very very much missing her and her warmth and compassion. However, I feel I have pushed too far so I am now asking for your much-needed help please. I am asking for my sins to be washed away and then I can..... with your assistance help bring my much-loved girl of my dreams back into my arms where I will hold her so tight and never let her go, never treat her like I did ever again. I would dearly love our souls to be together forever again and I would marry her in one of your many sacred houses and live happily ever after till the day you would require us to be in your presence my Lord.
If my request is possible could you guide my beautiful girl towards making contact with me again as I really want nothing more other than to be the best husband I can be for ### and son-in-law to her family. My sins are paramount first my Lord as I don't ever want to hurt her again as she is worth too much to me to ever ignore ever again so please wash my sins away and then guide my beautiful girl ### back to me and I will in honour of you my Lord do my absolute best and try my guts out to make things right and to thank you very much for all your help regarding this matter. If I could ask for one more thing can you please give me the strength to love you and your faith again I am looking out for you my Lord but it's very dark here where I am, please give me a sign of light so I can find my way back to you.
Thank you my lord and I am so glad you're on our side as being Satan's little apprentice is not for me, I'm a lover not a fighter and that's all I want to do..... is just love.
Praise to you my lord and I love you too very much.
Amen.
For everything you have granted me in my life I am so thankful for from the deepest part of my heart and I am so sorry that I have lost my faith over the years. I have become a Black hearted, poisoned, jealous, ungrateful person that has lost my faith, myself, the love of my life, my job, and dishonour to both ### and our families! I've never wanted to be like this my Lord! And it pains me so deeply I don't know how...........I will ever make it up to you. Now that I think back I've asked and asked off you all the time and never returned my faith except a thank you for looking over me, ###, and both our families and friends.
I feel as though Satan has gifted me with anguish, hatred, jealousy, and poisoned my heart full of blackness and sickness because I have lost my faith in you my Lord! I feel as though Satan has seen the void and filled it with his faith which is just pure blackness and evil.
My Lord I am at such a great loss! My love of my life and I have walked away from each other due to my insensitivity and evil that has projected from me. My love of my life has walked away in tears and dejected as she tried to help me and I threw it in her face every time and now I'm killing inside as I love her so much and I am so sorry, I'm finding it hard to sleep at night. I tried to help myself and stop this evil that kept coming out of me before it was too late but it was like I had no control over my actions and I was hurting my love of my life! ###, every time! The things I've said to her, the uncaring selfish attitude towards her, and the horrible things I've done in her presence like having no respect for her, my Lord she has so much passion, kindness, sensitivity, and caring like I never seen anybody have except my parents, ### has a huge heart of gold I just don't know what I have become and I am so depressed and sick with guilt and despair I just have no idea what horrible monster I have become and I am so ashamed of myself it's all I can do to live another day.
If I was to have another chance with ### my Lord I would be very different, with your guidance and love I know I could be her everything again but I just don't know how to ask and or whether I should.
With your help and guidance my Lord I would love her, care for her, trust her, have an abundance of time for her, teach her, respect her, and nurture her soul back to a loving girl again that she was when I first met her. I am so frustrated at my insensitivity and why I didn't try harder when it would have mattered most.
My Lord ### is everything to me and my whole world and I want her back in my life as I am very very much missing her and her warmth and compassion. However, I feel I have pushed too far so I am now asking for your much-needed help please. I am asking for my sins to be washed away and then I can..... with your assistance help bring my much-loved girl of my dreams back into my arms where I will hold her so tight and never let her go, never treat her like I did ever again. I would dearly love our souls to be together forever again and I would marry her in one of your many sacred houses and live happily ever after till the day you would require us to be in your presence my Lord.
If my request is possible could you guide my beautiful girl towards making contact with me again as I really want nothing more other than to be the best husband I can be for ### and son-in-law to her family. My sins are paramount first my Lord as I don't ever want to hurt her again as she is worth too much to me to ever ignore ever again so please wash my sins away and then guide my beautiful girl ### back to me and I will in honour of you my Lord do my absolute best and try my guts out to make things right and to thank you very much for all your help regarding this matter. If I could ask for one more thing can you please give me the strength to love you and your faith again I am looking out for you my Lord but it's very dark here where I am, please give me a sign of light so I can find my way back to you.
Thank you my lord and I am so glad you're on our side as being Satan's little apprentice is not for me, I'm a lover not a fighter and that's all I want to do..... is just love.
Praise to you my lord and I love you too very much.
Amen.
