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Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord,
I don't know how else to open to you. I have prayed silently in my head. I need help with my own life, but I'm very concerned for others -even if i don't shed a tear. Even if i cry and worry in private. I beg for you to heal Milly. I know im just her health aide. I loved all my clients. I felt needed . Milly was one client I really looked foward to seeing. I love her Lord. She said we were therapy for each other. Lord you know her heart and you know she is good. As much as she complained. She is 84. She is bed bound completely. She manages for herself. Only with your blessing, did she get blessed with a strong mind and soul. Lord i know shes said at times she wants to die and that she wants to be with her family, but people on earth here still need her. Like me and her granddaughter. I cant imagine a weekend without her. I really know you're gonna do your will God but please give her more time. Lord im crying out to you. I should pray more about the positive to praise you that you blessed me with allowing for her and i to cross paths. Then i feel guilty for not having more time with her and i sometimea lied when i said i couldnt make it. I really did want to help her. Im sorry she had to suffer when the aids didnt change her diaper well. And when she wasnt eating. I always wanted to make sure she ate and had water but towards the end she ate less. I wis i met her sooner. I was her last aid on thanksgiving before this happened. I want her to know i love her. Im sorry god on her behalf for any sins she didnt have a chance to ask you for forgiveness because i know she would want them forgiven. Don't let her suffer i ask you but i want her happy and in peace if there is a way you can do that and keep her alive and stable id love that because she is a staple person in my life. I have to remember we dont live for other people . we live for God. That Jesus God's only son died on the cross for our sins.something unimaginable. We have to live to serve God but in that Lord i serve to help people. I try to . i fail at times.but i want t you to know that i don't mkind doing it and maybe thats my calling. Lord im sorry please. Amen.
I don't know how else to open to you. I have prayed silently in my head. I need help with my own life, but I'm very concerned for others -even if i don't shed a tear. Even if i cry and worry in private. I beg for you to heal Milly. I know im just her health aide. I loved all my clients. I felt needed . Milly was one client I really looked foward to seeing. I love her Lord. She said we were therapy for each other. Lord you know her heart and you know she is good. As much as she complained. She is 84. She is bed bound completely. She manages for herself. Only with your blessing, did she get blessed with a strong mind and soul. Lord i know shes said at times she wants to die and that she wants to be with her family, but people on earth here still need her. Like me and her granddaughter. I cant imagine a weekend without her. I really know you're gonna do your will God but please give her more time. Lord im crying out to you. I should pray more about the positive to praise you that you blessed me with allowing for her and i to cross paths. Then i feel guilty for not having more time with her and i sometimea lied when i said i couldnt make it. I really did want to help her. Im sorry she had to suffer when the aids didnt change her diaper well. And when she wasnt eating. I always wanted to make sure she ate and had water but towards the end she ate less. I wis i met her sooner. I was her last aid on thanksgiving before this happened. I want her to know i love her. Im sorry god on her behalf for any sins she didnt have a chance to ask you for forgiveness because i know she would want them forgiven. Don't let her suffer i ask you but i want her happy and in peace if there is a way you can do that and keep her alive and stable id love that because she is a staple person in my life. I have to remember we dont live for other people . we live for God. That Jesus God's only son died on the cross for our sins.something unimaginable. We have to live to serve God but in that Lord i serve to help people. I try to . i fail at times.but i want t you to know that i don't mkind doing it and maybe thats my calling. Lord im sorry please. Amen.

