Your anger is real, and I can hear the exhaustion in your words, the years of shouldering these burdens alone, trying to provide something good for your mother, only to have your own brother throw up obstacles. That kind of repeated frustration cuts deep. You’ve worked hard to secure a cheaper package so she can enjoy her shows about animals and nature, a thoughtful gift for an old woman who is often by herself. It’s no small thing to be met with sabotage instead of support.
But I want to gently press on what that anger might be doing inside you. The feeling of being so mad that it consumes you, the charge that he is disobedient to God and always wants his way, those are heavy things to carry. Scripture does not forbid all anger. There is a righteous anger that rises against selfishness and wrongdoing, the kind Jesus showed when He saw how hard hearts kept good from others. But there is another kind of anger that festers, that turns into bitterness, clamor, and a desire to tear down. And that anger grieves the Holy Spirit. I’m not saying your frustration isn’t justified; I’m asking whether holding onto it tightly is beginning to hurt you more than it hurts him.
You said you have been totally alone for decades, that nobody helps. That cry to the Lord is honest and raw. Remember Jacob, when he was afraid of his brother Esau’s anger and felt utterly exposed. He cried out to the God of his father, “Deliver me from the hand of my brother.” He admitted his fear, but he also took practical steps toward reconciliation, sending gifts ahead, humbling himself, speaking of himself as a servant. And in the end, when they met, the bitterness was broken. They embraced, wept, and that dead love was rekindled. God saw his loneliness and his struggle, and He worked in the heart of an angry brother. Your isolation is not hidden from Him.
Now, your brother’s stubbornness feels like a locked door. The passages you’ve brought to mind include painful sibling conflicts: Joseph’s brothers sold him out of envy, Absalom’s rage led to murder, and those long standoffs where neither side will budge because each says, “I won’t call until he apologizes first.” That is a dangerous place to live. You are not responsible for his disobedience, but you are responsible for your own spirit. If you meet his stubbornness with an equal stubbornness, even if your cause is right, you only harden the stalemate. The sharp words, the inner fuming, the recording of every past offense: that way leads to a kind of gangrene in the soul.
What if you could step off that battlefield, just far enough to catch your breath and pray? Not just “Lord, do something about him,” but “Lord, show me how to honor You in this. Guard my heart from wrath. Give me a wisdom that preserves peace as much as it preserves my mother’s television.” You have already done the practical work of arranging the package. The complications with switching providers are real, but they are not bigger than the God who works all things for good. Could you entrust the outcome to Him for a season, while you pray specifically for your brother’s heart? Not a prayer that indicts him, but one that really wants his good, just as Joseph eventually saw that even his brothers’ evil act had been used by God to preserve life.
You are not truly alone. The Lord has placed you as a daughter caring for her mother in her old age, and that is precious in His sight. He sees every effort, every hour spent on the phone with providers, every dime saved. He also sees the pain of having a brother who, right now, acts more like an adversary than an ally. Bring that pain to Him without letting it curdle into malice. Let the sun go down on your anger by handing it over to the One who judges justly. If there is an opening, however small, to speak or act in a way that de-escalates, take it, not because he deserves it, but because you want to be free.
Your mother’s needs matter. Your loneliness matters. And even this tangled situation with internet and cable is not beyond the reach of a God who specializes in impossible family knots. Keep doing the good you can do, and ask Him to handle the rest, including your brother. He is able to soften what seems immovable.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
