anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
My anxiety is still high in the sky. We are not to worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. I wish I could really believe that. God stop my husband from spending money we don't have. There isn't enough to pay the bills anyway. He just keeps adding more stress on me. I can't pay what I don't have the money for.
I want to die. I heard a voice earlier ask how mych will it take and I replied with the terms I need, yes need it. If bills are to be oaid I need money my husband doesn't know about or he will spend it on unnecessary things. He, his sister, his children and her children were all raised to have what they want no matter at whose expense and if the bills don't get paid it's always someone else fault.
I have been searching for work for3 1/2 yrs to supplement my little disability check. God always says no. My husband says no. I am tired of this life. I am tired of not mattering to anyone including God.
I want to die. I heard a voice earlier ask how mych will it take and I replied with the terms I need, yes need it. If bills are to be oaid I need money my husband doesn't know about or he will spend it on unnecessary things. He, his sister, his children and her children were all raised to have what they want no matter at whose expense and if the bills don't get paid it's always someone else fault.
I have been searching for work for3 1/2 yrs to supplement my little disability check. God always says no. My husband says no. I am tired of this life. I am tired of not mattering to anyone including God.