If you read my blog please keep praying for my situation. I will keep updating on the situation. As of today we sort of had a conversation about things. My mother decided to say that this was all of my doing. I told her that I was hurt by how she treated me. She replied that since she was my elder and my mother that no matter what she does I should only be nice to her and give her special attention, even if she only says negative things and treats me like dirt. I have forgiven her and am past the initial hurt of last week but this daily reminder of how bad things are in our relationship and this negativity is affecting my happiness. People are noticing how downcast I am even though I am praying all day and trying to put this all in the Lord's hands. I really wish and pray that she will have a kind word to say to me and that we can get through this. As of now I have still not yelled or became angry for which which I am grateful. But i've been drained of all the energy I have. I have gotten a headache the past few days, and even my ears are ringing. I need to be able to cheer up asap because I have a shift at work. I can't go in like this.